hi all it has been a hell of day damn... Went to go out to my pdoc appmt this morning only to find I had a flat tire ok my dad fixed that for me ok check. then get ready to go and ran into traffic jams every which way I went ok now I was running late to begin with because of the tire thing. now the traffic made me more late. SO I called my pdoc office and told them I was running late and they said ok well if you cant get here by such and such time then we will have to reschedule so I was like ok whatever. Anyway I made it there I was a half hour late and I still had to wait to see the doctor anyway for 45 minutes so owell. To make a long story short here, I told my pdoc about my bouts with the mainia and she said oh thats not good oh I know that. So she still wants me to get my bloodwork done, I will work on that next week. She is keeping me on the lithium and the Remron and she is adding olanzpine generic for Zyprexa I dont know much about it but I am going to look it up. They gave me a print out of the side effects and stuff. It is used for bipolar and other forms of depression. She is giving it to me at bedtime she is hoping it will make me sleep to. So wish me luck. The only down fall of this new med is it is very very expensive the generic is over $500.00 they gave me the first months for free but I have to apply for pharmacudical assisatnce which most likely I will get turned down because I did before because my dad made to much money they said owell we will see what happens i hate go on something and say it works then i cant pay for it well we have to switch me again to something else. I am just very very irritated tonight . My dog scatched me eye this afternoon to it was tearing all afternoon and it is blurry still I hope he didnt scratch my cornea now thats all I need. This day must end soon or I am going to scream........ ok bye for now Have some catching up to do here I see so good bye for now all.