Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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TexasMade 11/10/2011

I walked my daughter to the bus stop this morning and even though it was a little chili it was a beautiful fall morning the wind was blowing the golden leaves from the tree's all around it was so pretty, but something about my BP brain stops me from enjoying it like I should. Does this happen to anyone else?

deleted_user 11/10/2011

I think (at least in my case) it's not the BP brain,it's the medication.
I very much enjoyed it up until I started it.
I can't explain it but I go out, take pictures and when I come home and see them on screen I really enjoy them (I don't enjoy the tree I'm taking a picture of but I enjoy the tree I took a picture of).

deleted_user 11/10/2011

I think its a form a self sabotage. Not letting yourself enjoy things is hard. I try not to do it. I try to sit in the moment and enjoy that moment no matter what my brain is telling me to do. Good Luck and talk to your Doc about it

deleted_user 11/10/2011

I also have this problem. I wish there was something I could do to make myself be happier. I seem to feel unhappy all of the time. And it doesn't matter what I'm doing.

tommymott 11/10/2011

Oh yes...but enjoyment can be experienced on different levels, from the wry smile to the throes of ecstasy. So we should enjoy what we can, how we can and not worry about being less-than. As far as happiness, it's created in the mind. If we feel we need this or that to be happy we're missing the boat. So don't worry, be happy!

dancingd 11/10/2011

I agree with crraaazzzy...it's the meds.

Unless you are deff in a depressed episode..it's the meds.

linds7 11/10/2011

i feel like that a lot and I am not sure if its just a depression phase or what! But if I could live for the moment I think I'd being doing a lot better! the picture thing sounds like a good idea

surferchica 11/10/2011

I get that feeling of non-enjoyment--"anhedonia"-- as well. I feel too subdued. I am struggling with low level depression but also think it is the meds effecting me.

I find myself faking enjoyment....just so that my husband, children and friends will not be brought down. I really would like to feel joy again.

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