you're describing anxiety to a `t'
sorry you're feeling this way. i know i have to be in the proper headspace to do my projects. what do you usually do to fight anxiety?

I'm sorry that you are going through this. Some days I have that problem. I have no motivation to do anything. But I don't know how to overcome it. I would like to have a clean house. But I cannot make myself do the work to get it clean. I would have to do it when I get home from work. And by the time I get home from work I just want to sit and relax. I wish I had some advice. But I can offer support and hugs.

Give yourself permission to have some quiet time sweetie and permission to make mistakes..sometimes we need it...do you have a prn to take?.. Sometimes I take a sleeping pill in the day for the calm...
Go ahead and fail at a sewing project.. hell just try and sew a straight line if you can and give yourself a pat on the back if you succeed and if you don't try again...
Anxiety is a miserable feeling... I find trying to clear my mind and doing little things like a long hot bath helps... meditating...
Perhaps you just need some time to do nothing.. big hug for you..xo

Thanks everyone....thanks for understanding.........I started mopping the stupid floors and picking up a bit.....took a klonopin. I don't know I've been having to take 3- 1mg klonopin daily for weeks now....didn't used to have to do that. I guess with the holidays I've been feeling more anxious than "normal".

I'm a worker bee ya know, and sitting still just isn't in the cards for me on most days.....sometimes I feel like screaming as loud as I can, hell some days I do and I don't care what the neighbors think...lol

I have practiced a little on the sewing, not yet today, just saying. But this feel of failing is huge for me, and yes, I was able to sew a straight line and was real happy about it. Ya know gets me......is when I don't comprehend the directions, and then I go right to knocking myself for not getting it. I know I am creating all of this chaos and anxiety, and damn I hate it, I try so hard no to let it keep me from doing things. Where the hell did I learn to be so critical of myself???? WHY do I have to be this way....sigh

I have the same problem; intense fear of failure. I guess we just need to learn that mistakes are part of the process of doing anything. xxxx

That's exactly true zsa, hard to break a lifelong habit, but I have faith that it can be done.

Now I just need to find the motivation! ahhhhhhh!! lol

Tats, it's always hard for me to start a new project. All that decision making -- what color, what size, which thread -- well I get bogged down in all of that.

Don't do all that planning. Just grab you a ball of yarn and a loom and just knit for the pure joy and relaxation of it. No expectations, just fun. Remember when looming was fun????

I'm taking this week to get my house kind of in order. And next week will start all the projects that are waiting for me. Today, I put a new vacuum together (with only one screw left over) and I hung a coockoo clock.

Tomorrow, the world!!!!!!

I understand your anxiety. I, too, have problems starting things. Of course, once I start something I don't like to stop until it's finished. I guess I'm afraid that it will just end up sitting around, unfinished, for years (and that has happened in the past)....but as for how to get the motivation to get it started? I'm sorry. I'm at a loss. Maybe just setting aside a special time to do something....like starting a project at a certain time of day after completing something you HAVE to do. Then you can just relax and take your time. Set aside that particular time of day to do your project every day (or however much you want to do it per week). I really hope this helps.

Awww thanks MK. and I'm glad you got the vacuum put together!! Great job!!!! I've been putting the Christmas decorations away slowly taking my time....I tend to start to rush and then wonder why afterwards I am having such back pain!!! And YES I do remember when looming was fun...and I want it to be again.....so I have just settled on the fact that when the moods strikes me to slap some yarn to a loom it will strike me, until then I'm just putzing around the house and getting things together for a neighborhood yardsale in March.....I hate a cluttered house!! lol

Thanks Hanna....you were a help.....is good advice and I won't forget it!!! Thanks to everyone! ((hugs all around))

Time to pull it out!!!! It WILL get cold eventually and we are going to need something to do........when is winter coming our way btw?? lol