I felt this way when I first went on my medications. I felt less like myself, but the medication made me more thoughtful and less emotional over the topic. Things felt...ordinary, uneventful,bland- all passion gone. When the feeling didn't fade, my doctor put me on another medication. I moods then felt even, but I felt a little bit more like myself over time.

It is hard to distinguish whether you are simply on a roll, or manic, but taking the time to try figure it out does help too.

I would also just advise my doctor of my feelings, perhaps there are other alternatives they can suggest.

I do miss the euphoria and having a bunch of energy from time to time myself. Feeling on top of the world and incivible was fun, but the crashing and burning..... not so much.

while the moods are fleeting the effects can remain with you forever.

I don't miss mania and being arrested and hospitalized for 6 months. Thank you, lithium. Boring and uneventful is ok with me.

There is something to be said for 'riding the waves' however it can also be said for 'taking time to stop and smell the roses'

The unfortunate thing is what goes up must come down so a crash will follow hypo or mania... And stability will never be had

I think a lot of people have gone through having these feelings and thoughts tuxed... Stability in life is important though for ourselves and for all who care for us

Welcome to the Board!!.. It's a great place to come...xo

I have been in a dystymic mood for a couple of months. No joy, no feelings. I just live without ups or downs. I'm doing absolutely nothing with my life. I'm on Latuda too. I don't want to stop the meds because crashing and burning after an episode isn't worth it.

Hey tux~~

Missing manageable mania is a common complaint. I felt that way too at first but I kept reminding myself that the mania was like a grenade that could and would go off unexpectedly so stop wishing. My medicated self is just different than my raw self -- not necessarily better than or worse than. I like the new me and so do others.

I think that is what we all feel deep down secretly like BBipolar I was in and you a flat dead world for 2 months or so now I am just starting to feel the match lighting the fire back to life. Like I said before let's see what this wild is going to bring. I will try to manage this the best I know how and yes I had to up the anti-depressant. you can message me if you have more questions.

Thanks for everyone's comments, at least I don't feel so weird about missing the disorder. I also struggle from an eating disorder, and part of that is telling me to get off my meds as well because being more hyper and gradious makes me less hungry. I'm stuck between a rock and hard place. I will speak to my psychiatrist when I see her next in a few weeks.

Yeah I miss the high feelings now that I am in my coctail of medication that make me stable. FOr me I try to focus on doing what makes me happy like yoga or reading. And I have to constently tell myself that I have to take my meds or else I'll ed u in the hospiital. Some times it is a daily reminder other times it is weekl/ In the end I know I have to learn to live in the normal balance of mood/

What do you do in those instances when you don't really care if you have to go to the hospital. I feel like that is more where I am. I'm in the mood where I almost want to test my treatment team to see what they would actually try to do...I've never been hospitalized for my bipolar...only for eating disorders. When my therapist told me if I keep going the way I am right now I'd probably end up in the hospital by summer, I literally laughed in her face.

Regarding your comment 11 tuxe.... It says you're also on the Personality Disorder Board??... This sounds like a desire to 'act out' to me... If you're feeling a little 'out of control' or desire to make things worse for yourself... I would call your doctor... Therapy can help with behaviour... Big hug...x