Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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TC40 07/28/2015

I have three weeks left of unemployment and I am done. Every interview I have had has lead nowhere. I have no idea what I am going to do. I wish I were dead. I cannot and WILL NOT ask my family for anything. I feel like taking the money i get this week, giving away everything but my clothes, packing up my car and leaving. I feel s lost and alone. And to top it off, my phone is in the process of dying. I don't know i will afford a new one. I just wish i could go to sleep and not wake back up.

chris138 07/28/2015

Sorry to hear you are down. It is a tough job market for everyone I think. Hang in there TC40 don't give up.

Can you go back to school for anything? Do you have any hobbies you can turn into a job?

I feel the same way about going to sleep and not waking up...at times...but I know I have to stay.

TC40 07/28/2015

There are jobs out there, but they are either part time sndd the ones. Bb thatAre Full time only pay $10 an hour. I have 23 YEARS of clerical experience. The job i got laid off from had FINALLY put me up to 13.24 an hour....a WEEK before they laid me off. So it's starting back at square 1 almost 13 years later. I am disgusted by all of it. I don't want to do it anymore. I am emotionally worn out by havibg to pretend i am positive when all I really want to say is "this sucks, can you please just give me your $10 an hour so i can get along. I.

chris138 07/28/2015

I hear ya about the $10/hr pay...I'm doing that now...ugh

spacekat 07/28/2015

I hear ya TC40. I'm sorry about your situation. Like chris said, it's a hard job market making it even more difficult to find a good job. I know it's not much but $10/hr is better than nothing. Starting from scratch can be a good thing - sorry to be so Pollyanna-ish. You can pave your own way. Do you have a local classified ads that are looking for odd jobs? You could always supplement the $10/hr with something you like from the want-ads. I wish you the best of luck. Big hugs!!

spacepony 07/28/2015

I imagine you've tried temping?

You've got my continuing support. You will get yourself to a better place. Rest as much as you can. Do you have a pdoc?

dancingd 07/29/2015

I don't know your total money situation....but maybe it's time to look into SSDI ?

Good luck with everything

TC40 07/29/2015

I am taking an online medical coding course. As far as expanding my search, I would pretty much have to move. The area where I live isn't surrounded by any larger towns. There are jobs, however I need to have a job where I can stand and sit when I need to (I have arthritis in both knees). I am not trying to make excuses. It is just my reality. :(

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