Can you call your doc and tell him/her you lost it sweetie??.. they could just call in anther script.. I hope you get a good rest tonight and get the meds solved tomorrow..x

I'm not even suppose to be on it. It's an old bottle that I never threw out. But I take it in emergencies because it's like a fail safe. It snaps me back for a day or two. Still I even though I'm sleeping too much I'm not getting that fully rested sleep. And when I wake up I feel too drugged up and drowsy. I'm not sure what is causing it. I assume the fanapt. That would be fine and dandy any other time but I can't be like that over the week end. My grandfather who lives in florida is coming to visit. He's asked to see his great grand children so I have to pick them up. Even if I"m not well life isn't waiting for me.

I need to think fast and act quickly. I'm trying to think right now about where that deprakote might be. I'm cutting the fanapt for now and I'm so desperate I'm thinking about adding more lamictal I probably need more ambien but I don't know if I want to risk adding more ambien. And then tomorrow I can double the adderral if I need to. Just so my house gets cleaned and laundry gets done. I think If I cut the fanapt out for now I can function just enough to watch over my kids as long as my house is already clean. But I can't do it all darn it!

I hate playing my own doctor. I hear what you are saying Sunj but I just saw her monday so you know she is only going to tell me to deal with it. After I know that new meds need time to work but I don't have time right now! Once school starts for my children fine because I will have more free time to just loaf about and sleep my life away. But until then I need to find a way to function just long enough to make it.

BTW kids are not with me right now they are at school I pick them up friday. So I need to try and clean before I get them. Saturday I take them with me to my mother's house. Which I still need to watch them but watching them is one thing cleaning up a whole house and trying to keep track of them at the same time is way too much for me right now. Well obviously since I can't even clean my house when they aren't around.

I wish my family weren't a bunch of assholes. It' be helpful if they were at least understanding but they aren't. They are a great source of stress for me. I just fought hard to get my kids back under MY control so I can't complain about it now! I don't need my uncle trying to swoop in and go for the kill! And as far as my grandfather he is old lives far away and knows nothing about my problems. I wouldn't want to tell him anything about it he's too old to deal with it. Honestly when his time does come I want him to die in peace not worrying over me.

I don't want to go into too much more detail than that. I don't think I can handle it right now. All I know is I'm tired of living in fear of my own damn family. My heart can only take so many stabs before I bleed to death!

Not that I'm complaining I'm use to it by now.

im thinking i need more of my lamictal too...when the dr has upped it 2 times i felt good for about a month then i started feeln bad agian...i dont think im at the sweet spot dose yet?

i hope you've gotten your meds straightened out and that you're feeling well enough to get some cleaning done. if you can afford it you might want to call a cleaning service and see if they can come in for the day and do some light cleaning for you. i hope it all works out. i'm glad your kids are coming and that you're managing the stress your uncle causes in this situation.

I'm sorry the Fanapt is not working out. I was really hoping it would. I had read your other thread on my phone, but my little fingers were too tired to type a reply.

My pdoc has talked about trying Fanapt for me--that is if the Abilify did not start to kick in better--and it did.

I totally understand your challenges about house cleaning, organizing and kids. Been there and still doing that.

Try starting on just one room that is easy--say the bathroom (because it is small). Do that room then take a 15 minute break (or longer)

Spend 20 minutes cleaning each room. Set a timer. Move on after each room, but allow yourself a little break in between. Put on some favorite upbeat music too.

Keep a piece of paper and a pen with you to make a list of things you think about--things to buy at the grocery, etc.

Save the laundry for another day, if you can. Then you can concentrate on just cleaning. Consider even going to a laundrymat, if you have a lot---so you can get it all done in 2 hours. it is worth it.

I applaud your efforts to be a good mom!!!

ps: a gentle preemptive boot tot he ass. :)

thank you every one.

I DID find the deprakote ! Now today I got all the laundry done. I've been putting that off since that heave wave.

The deprakote definately helps though every time I take it, it works like a charm!

I'm affraid about the lamictal too. At first it worked like a miracle but now as time goes on it's getting weaker and weaker. I fear the day I max out on it.

My medication days are numbered since nothing seems to last for long. I worry about that a lot because when they aren't working properly then I don't get out of bed or do anything.

But I have other health issues too with my womanly problems. That still isn't resolved. I'm afraid I'm a mess. It never stops.

Now to see if I can get anything else done today. Keep your fingers crossed every one. I'll keep you posted.

the brain and the body can only handel so manny meds..at times the meds need to be stopped to let the dopimine catch up..sorta like a detox...then start again..

Yes you are talking about a medication break. I can't afford such a thing at the moment because of my children. I need to be well when I have them with me. But things didn't go according to plan any how this week end so it isn't as urgent any more.

Still I can't take the deprakote any how. The second day I took it I couldn't get out of bed because I was in so much pain. It makes my arthritis flame up to crippling levels.

well I will start a new thread about some of this later. I need to rest up for a moment. Hey at least I'm calm today. you can probably tell since I don't have page long posts.

Dear doorknob,
I hope things get better for you and they find the right medication for you. hang in there and lots of ((hugs))

I lost a script once and I had to call my case manager and my docs office but they did call it in to my pharmacy. I hope you find the energy to clean I have a problem with cleaning but I know I always feel better after I get it done. best of luck to you.

Hey doorknob, glad you managed to get a few things done!

Rest well my friend.

Hope you feel better soon :hugs: