Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Maybe I'm Just Crazy

darkdestiny921
darkdestiny921
It's funny sometimes the moods i go through on a daily basis, i mean it seems like they just have minds of their own. This morning i woke up screaming, then I was exhausted, after just sitting quietly for a minute i was depressed, last night i was crying for what seemed like an hour, maybe thats why i woke up angry, my depressive moods last longer and longer every time i have one, then suddenly Im laughing and loving just to get suicidal, these damn mood swings are tiring, i seem to be in bed by 9 at the latest if im not crying then again i dont sleep much, does anybody else have dreams that are all over the place that you seem to keep emotions from? like if you have a confusing nightmare does it leave you scared or angry when your awake? never the less i think I am rambling now so ill just stop typing hehe.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
it sounds like you're rapid cycling..my moods last much longer in one state.. do you see your pdoc soon sweetie..?..x
darkdestiny921
darkdestiny921
thats the problem, i dont have one anymore, i just got out of foster care and i cant afford a doc at the moment
tommymott
tommymott
Try Community Mental Health. They use a sliding fee scale.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I understand totally honey, I;m in exactly the same place you are. get to see a pdoc quick.

hugs

Rachel
deleted_user
deleted_user
sounds like your mind is is control over you right now i have times where thing dont seem to stop i fight with the thought this is a pain staking process but after a time it works then it starts again so try and not stopping trying is all a person can do i don t know you r total situation or meds nut from a life stlye presective there are things to try that could help staying low key when thinking of thing that could happen if your to involded in the down or upside of things it can cause you to get into the mood your trying to aviod keeping it mellow low key and then doing when feeling low can help the oppsite of how you feel but caught the feeling early so it not to much to over come
darkdestiny921
darkdestiny921
oh ok, thanks for the advice, ill try to mellow myself out but its like a roller coaster you can only ignore the beginning before you go falling down.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I get this way sometimes right before my periods. Not lately, but it used to be that I would get into a safe space and be able to take a few days off and beat pillows, eat chocolate and take hot showers to get rid of my fit and ride out the storm.

Not anymore.........

Hugs, Catherine
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sometimes, if you are anything like me, you take your emotions and put them inside yourself. The emotions build and they can cause physical problems or they can be taken into the subconscious and be triggered by stressful events.

I don't have the bad dreams, but I do have terrible episodes where I get suicidal ideation and want to beat my head against the wall.

I'm tired of being tired, if you know what I mean.
darkdestiny921
darkdestiny921
my period was just ending, i think about suicide more and more, and i actually beat my head against walls, sometimes knowing im in pain makes me feel better in this odd way, thanks for your comment hope to talk to all of you soon.
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