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I feel it right now.
I get jealous with every boyfriend I've had.
I just started dating this guy kind of. Well we've been off and on since the summer. Both times I ended it. But now I want to give him a real shot. He has made every move. He invited me to Boston and when we needed help he called me his girlfriend. He checked on me when I was sick.
But I've been texting him a lot since last Friday in Boston and I've been saying cute things, but he cuts the conversation short and says bye. Anyway I don't know where we stand, where he stands.
He is 4 years younger than me. We have each talked about how maybe we should be with people our own age.
Well he's not contacting me. And it's been driving me a little crazy. I just want to talk to him about it. But I don't want to seem too much.
I looked on his profile on Facebook and he's having a cozy conversation with this girl. She said she misses him... last post he made a joke and said maybe he'd come around her neighborhood. I am going mad with jealousy. I get so jealous! Is this just me being insecure? I can't handle this! I want to just end it.
I get jealous with every boyfriend I've had.
I just started dating this guy kind of. Well we've been off and on since the summer. Both times I ended it. But now I want to give him a real shot. He has made every move. He invited me to Boston and when we needed help he called me his girlfriend. He checked on me when I was sick.
But I've been texting him a lot since last Friday in Boston and I've been saying cute things, but he cuts the conversation short and says bye. Anyway I don't know where we stand, where he stands.
He is 4 years younger than me. We have each talked about how maybe we should be with people our own age.
Well he's not contacting me. And it's been driving me a little crazy. I just want to talk to him about it. But I don't want to seem too much.
I looked on his profile on Facebook and he's having a cozy conversation with this girl. She said she misses him... last post he made a joke and said maybe he'd come around her neighborhood. I am going mad with jealousy. I get so jealous! Is this just me being insecure? I can't handle this! I want to just end it.
while I don't think this guy has done anything wrong exactly, he may be feeling smothered by you and that will surely drive him away. He may just need space.
Plus I am female and have platonic guy friends; it's possible. Innocent too.
Have you looked into Dialectal Behavioral therapy? That's supposed to help with these kinds of issues.
In the meantime, distract yourself. Watch tons of movies, go out with friends and DON"T talk about it!
However I still have obsession like feelings and turmoil when it comes to my somewhat new love interest. I can't wait to figure out my shit in counseling. I feel insecure about us, and I feel crazy in the head about not knowing how things are.
..MEN... that is the biggest issue I have. I have a love/hate relationship with them all....starting with my father then due to one or two psychotic assholes that came my way.... WHICH happened because I was manic/psychotic from bipolar disorder. I'll always have it, gotta live with what has happened in the past and learn from it, learn to manage, learn to cope. Become a better person.
it's great that you have painting to keep you busy and to feel good about yourself. Keep doing that!
Let the relationship sort itself out in its own time.
And try to get a book on DBT
And I actually went with a really nice, gentle, decent guy this time. When I was manic for five years in and out of depression and psychosis.... yeah.... abusers found me and took advantage of me. But I am different now. I have baggage, but at least I'm taking medication, going to therapy, and I'm on the right track.
I'm not clear about what you are trying to say here in your message so I don't know how to properly respond 100%. But I know I have issues, I admit that. I haven't called him once since the last time we hung out.... I have texted him a handful of times... since Friday that's it.. just saying hi and checking in. The only part I'm not okay with is getting upset about a conversation that is none of my business.
I do blame myself for what happened with those men which I know I shouldn't. But, this is why I'm in therapy.. to sort out all that stuff.