I just want to let everyone know I am ok #1 and that I am going through a very very dark place right now. I am sorry if I scared anyone but when your down and out you say things. I will be calling my pdoc monday morning to explain to her what has been going on. I am just not in a good frame of mind right now. I have had alot of things happen to me over a short period of time and I dont know how to process it all. My mind is racing from one thing to the next contantly. Depression is out of control. Bipolar crap is really kicking my butt. I have been really spiriling out of control for awhile now and just didnt realize it. I have my monents where I just dont want to go on anymore. I just feel like I have no purpose in life sometimes. I just dont know what to do anymore. So anyway,thanks everyone for making me aware of my bought with my depression. I was reading my past posts and was like hmmm did I write that. I dont remember writing it. So I do apprecaite all your support thanks again bye for now.