Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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SarahZee 03/03/2009

a couple of years ago when i was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder, i would get really angry and yell a lot and then not be able to sleep for a long time. but about a year ago i started getting weird. like i act like a little kid and say weird things that don't make any sense. sometimes i talk about elephants and zebras, one time i even said i was following my new friend log to the moon. i do not know anyone named log. and sometimes i would hallucinate, usually of the girl in the ring. that girl is terrifying. but i also would see people climbing up trees and stuff. it would go away after an hour, and it would happen everyday and then 3 months later it would be gone. then it came back and then it was gone. now i can make it go away, but i haven't heard of anyone talk about mania like this. my therapist said it was mania, but my psychiatrist was very confused when i told him about this. does that sound like mania, or could it be something else?

deleted_user 03/03/2009

I would have to say it was something else. What medication are you on and how much...Your pdoc must have thought about that, right?

deleted_user 03/03/2009

The closest I have been to hallucinating is to keep thinking someone was calling my name, or seeing shadows out the corner of my eye.

Your hallucinations sound much more serious and warrent further investigation. If the pdoc you saw was confused, could you get a second opinion?

SarahZee 03/03/2009

i haven't been on the same meds sense this has been happening. i've switched them so many times. the one i have been on the longest is geodon, but i was off of that when this started happening.

SarahZee 03/03/2009

my psychiatrist said it's normal for me to hallucinate like this. i also have ptsd, most of my hallucinations are caused by that, or from scary things i have seen. i have been to other psychiatrists and one said i was schizophrenic, but the other 2 i have been to said i'm not.

deleted_user 03/04/2009

Just before I was DX I had a bad dark depression and I started hearing what I thought was voices.....scaring me that I thought I might have Schizophrenia...but I think back it was more of a what they call "Pychosis"-where you typically see things and hear voices...but it doesn;t last all the time like Schizophrenia. And I think thats what you also have experienced. Even though I was in the depressed phase....you can also get it with Mania too. Must be about ow the brain flicks a switch and throws us into a "higher being" I think.

There's special anti Pyschotic medication that help to minimise these experiences.

Once I was dx with BP and put on the Lithium and Lexapro I haven't ever has the voices again.....so I hope I may have helped in some way to your enquiry :)

deleted_user 03/04/2009

Sometimes, in a manic phase, I can blurt out things that make no sence and have thoughts that make no sence and I have found they are a defense mechanisim to push out thoughs, usually of my bad behavior, that I do not want in my head. it is sort of a mental way of changing the subject. Could this be what you are experiencing?

Peggy

SarahZee 03/04/2009

i can't really think properly when i get like that. it's like i'm not really there, i'm kind of like a dumb, crazy version of me. i talk like i'm little and i call everyone little boy, even girls. and lately i have been saying it's okay little boy, don't cry. i don't know why i am saying that because no one was crying. i don't know, i can't think at all. like i don't know what words mean that i should know. when i'm in the car and i'm looking out the window, i think it's the tv. sometimes i forget who people are. like my friends can say they are someone else and i believe them. it's really really weird.

deleted_user 03/04/2009

my un doctor opinion is psychosis. been there done that.

deleted_user 03/04/2009

yah....i agree with jamison...i think this is psychosis...i've been there too..it manifests differently in everyone....but i'm sure your pdoc can help stabelize you with an anti-psychotic, maybe even a mood stabelizer also...i know that me being on lithium has really helped keep me from getting psychotic...also proper rest is a very big and important thing! our brains are so sensitive that not getting enough sleep can throw us into a psychoic state pretty quick, for me anyway...even when i'm on my meds...if i miss a few good night sleeps..i begin to get psychotic.....anyway, don't get to scared or worried about this,Sarah, i think really your pdoc can help you....meds save, really! a big hug for you Sarah!

SarahZee 03/04/2009

i'm on geodon and lamictal and it still hasn't stopped. i've been on them for a while. maybe it's from ptsd? i have that too.

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