I'm so sorry for your pain. Sometimes it comes down to us having to take care of ourselves and not rely on others to understand or support us. Sad, but true... Hope your friend will come around and learn to accept you as you struggle with this illness. Good luck.

Well, I have only disclosed this to two close friends.....so really not many people know. I have no doubt though that others are seeing the wild raving expressive lunatic right now and wondering what the bloody hell is up with me.
I hope you are able to mend things with your friend.

Wow, She apologized by text about everything.! I completely forgive her and I will not be talking about my illness or having any conversations about medical issues. For obvious reasons.

I really am glad I decided to seek counsel and stayed away from her fo a week. No phone call from her and no texts from her, accept the one I told her I was going to seek counsel about it.
The whole weekend after I contemplated whether I should get a restraining order. Lots of mean messages.

But both of us believe in setting things straight without court intervention. I did get a good counselor whom we both know and we have both talked to her at seperate times.

What a deal. I have to remember whatever happens I have Jesus.

Yeah, I am a Jesus Freak.

Okay so she sent me a really nice apology for all the mean things she said. I was overjoyed and ready to work on the things on the list that I could work on.

Then she called me and it started all over. It is like her apology was just a roos to get me to see her points in a controlling and uncaring way. I gave her all I had. I will work on it. I am praying about it. I would appreciate your help in this area. etc.

Noew i am avoiding her and starting another church as of today. The message was just for me. Anyway it is a series that lasts 7 weeks. We will see how it goes.

I am weak but he is strong. Blessed are those who are poor in spirit for theirs are the kingdom of heaven. And Romans? I do what I don't want to do.

Thanks For your convo about the phone call. I also got the phone call after she apologized and I felt safe enough to talk to her. I don't know what the apology was for but she laid into me again. quoting scriptures in her flesh not in the spirit. So I am staying away from the service she goes to until I feel that I can handle seeing her.
Of course being christian I am trying to be as nice as I can and inviting her to have a nice salad but 2x she has been available so I tried. I am praying for both of us because their is some real healing required, Killing my soul.