One minute im up one minute im down
Im gettin really freakin sick of the merry go round
I look in the mirror I dont like what I see
Looks like this BP monsters taken over me
I want someone to help me take it all away
I want it gone I want it out of here no matter what I have to pay!
Why cant I just be normal? What the hell is that?
Is it crazy? Is it ugly? Is it too thin or too fat?
I feel so alone caught in this BP web
I guess I could call my doc or pop a med
But my one escape, my one big release
Is chillin with yall in DS, I love you guys PEACE!

Why is it creativity I find in this darkening confusion,
Is it just obscure beauty simply wrapped in illusion.
The light brings curiosity of matter and mind,
However in the darkness the artist I find,
Not dwelling in desperation or of deep despair,
Only marveling why despite suffering one continues to care.
Perhaps neither a wondrous blessing nor a vexing curse
To develop compassion for all this feeling we must traverse
Not to be consumed, conquer, or shut it away
But to realize are connection to others I say
So give me darkness and give me light
For in the twilight is the balance of sight.

Hope its not cheating to use an old one i wrote

I'm sick of this place thoughts changed dreams gone to waste.this happiness I chase just keeps getting lost and replaced. Never can keep a good smile on my face.just empty and filled with hate.no one to love so I stay in a mind state that's altered and deranged.

Oh bumsen....life is cyclical good times will come around again. I think the most important thing we beepers (a/k/a wrecking balls) are forced to learn is to "ride out a mood swing". It's bad now, but it won't always be this way. Big hugs to you, all day long.

Idc anymore I'm tired of fighting this I've been fighting bipolar disorder since I was like 2 or 3 but have been medicated for the last 12 years I'm tired of fighting for happiness that isn't there

Wow holy cow I just can't compete
My meds right now they feel so complete
Feeling glad after feeling sad
Most meds they fail and too much lithium
Give me a shake in my thumbs a twitchin
When violently happy and my mood flies
I crank the lamictal before I hit the sky
Because after I'm up I fall long and low
The monkey's bipolar two on my back don't you know
I live my life in the middle and take slow

Dobie, your avatar has a cat face.

Excellent skills!!! I don't have any = borrow and edit : )

I want a new drug - one that won't make me sick,
One that won't make me crash my car, or make me feel three feet thick.

I want a new drug - one that won't hurt my head,
One that won't make my mouth too dry, or make my eyes too red.

One that won't make me nervous, wonderin' what to do.


yes, its called plagiarism : )

(keep writing, seems like a great coping tool/skill!)

A world of waves in which I swim
The fabric of experience it does hem
Waves of intensity waves of bliss
Waves flowing round I feel amidst
Waves of silence give peace to the night
Before waves of dawn bring morning light
When boundless images will color the eye
On the shores of the consciousness it does lie
Waves of thought do change the reflection
Cascading ripples throughout perception
In a world of waves I do bask
For no greater experience can I ask