Hang in there, it will get better. I did a stay in the hospital & the transition home, especially the 1st night was rough. Take your meds & take care of the follow ups that you have. You can do this! Take it minute by minute if you have to. Take care of you.

Welcome back , its medication time , Not self medication time .

p.s. I can be prone or tempted to do the same thing . Ouch it can be painful !?

I know an "abandoned by the system" feeling, thinking they were premature in letting me out. And the allure of the manic rush too.

If that's what you're describing it sure can feel overwhelming and unsettling in the same instant, and I know things improved over time in my case.

Hello don't go out & party it will just make things worse specially in the long run. Just take it nice & easy, be gentle with yourself. I feel your pain, I remember how scary it was getting out of the hospital, like 1Lost14 said take it minute by minute if you have to. And yes take those meds :)
All the best to you
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So sorry for what you are going through. I know exactly how difficult it can be and I've spent time "partying" with just about anything I've ever gotten my hands on.

It takes some clean time before life straightens out, but until/unless you are taking your psych meds correctly, you will never become stable and will just keep digging a deeper hole.

I don't wanna tell you how to do things cuz I've been where you are many times and I truly know how hard it is. I'm just saying what's worked for me after years of doing things in ways that didn't work for me.

I wish you all the best and hope you get through this terribly difficult time quickly.

Get into therapy as soon as you can. It will change your way of thinking and acting in your life, in a very healthy way.

Thank you all so much. So far it's going as well as it can. I'm taking my meds and doing this minute by minute. I'm nervous about Fourth of July parties. I want to say I have this great willpower but I know I don't. I dont even see a therapist until July 9th. I'm feeling very fragile and I don't feel protected at all since being released.

While I get the feeling that you are just being tossed out into the world - what could they do otherwise?

Do you feel you needed to be more stable on meds first? Or maybe rehab? (I've no idea if you need that or not).

I guess hospitals only cover the urgent and emergency and then, yes, they do send you home. Same with physical elements.

Then it's our responsibility.

I hope you can enjoy your 4th July without harming your well being.

You said "I'm feeling very fragile and I don't feel protected at all" which shows your safety and security needs aren't being met to your satisfaction.

If you felt safe and secure then the desire to party would be lessened do you think?

If so what steps can anyone take to make you feel more that way?

I wish you the best.

I can speak from experience that staying longer in the hospital isn't always the best solution. Fresh air is Good. Enjoy some nature if you are able.

I always feel worried right after a hospital stay. The best you can do is take your meds and don't self-medicate. Partying isn't all it's cracked up to be, esp with all the medications. Wishing you the best!!