Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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MageMichael
MageMichael
I've been up for three days and I'm starting to crack. I tried to sleep for a while tonight but after an hour I gave it up. I've been writing a new security program for the mainframe web server and the IBM websphere application server. We have this stupid corporate cookie that is used to authenticate a user and the security group of course didn't write the agent for z/OS on the mainframe. Which is fine because I love this crap but tend to get obsessed with it. Because the security on the mainframe is so much tighter I have to do a lot more work to integrate it into our new web application environment on the mainframe. I love this stuff but there in lies the problem as I will get no credit for developing this because once again it is not on my objectives. But I have to do it, I can't let it alone, it is essential function for our enterprise webapplication environment on the mainframe, there in lies my downfall. Plus not to be a snob but I'm probably the only one around that can do it as you need to know C, Java, Web server http and the web server GWAPI programing and directirives, z/OS Unix and dynamic link libraries. I love this shit, I don't know why I don't get credit for it. Sorry I''m just really frustrated and venting.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm not really intelligent enough in this area to know what to do about solving problems of this nature, but it does seem to me that if you are talented to work almost anywhere, then perhaps there is another business or corporation that you could try.
SwordDancer
SwordDancer
I can relate to loving the job and getting obsessed with the tasks. However, that's where I had trouble meeting timelines; the obsession (OCD) kept me hours on a task when I should've been doing other tasks.

Hope that's not a problem you have.
BabyShelby
BabyShelby
Safe to say, Mage, that when you posted this thread we were all zonked out ..... coast to coast and around the globe. :)

Mage's in love!! In the above paragraph you professed your love not once but THREE TIMES!!! Even though you call her "crap, stuff and shit" she obviously does it for you. :) Best of all, she boosts your confidence and gives you swag.

Maybe just look at your unrecognized work as a secret love affair that cannot be exposed and you won't feel abused for getting no credit.

Have fun with your programming!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
It's great to see you MM...
It's all Greek to me..smile.. I know nothing!..
Please take care of yourself though sweetie.. I would hate to see you get sick again.. xo
deleted_user
deleted_user
I don't know enough about computers do get deep with you here but if you have not slept in 3 days and you are absorbed in your work-work which you get next to no credit for-then I can understand your frustrations and need to vent. Remember though, sometimes it is best to just walk away for a bit and let things settle down. I hope you figure out something to help you sleep though, that can not be good for you long-term. Good luck with the software.
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