Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
It sounds as if you have a long list of questions about yourself of things that you feel you may have inherited from your mother. Most mental health disorders are hereditary, so it would not be a surprise that you would pick up on one or two of them.
Find your self a therapist and start telling them about your feelings regarding your mother and how you feel you might be suffering some of the same things. If they see symptoms in you they will refer you to someone that will give you a battery of test to see what you might be suffering. It may be that you have not finished greaving for your mother. Which is fine. Everyone has a different way of greiving. I hope this helps you. Perhaps give you a starting place.
God Bless,
SwissCheese