Relapsing eating disorder?? Do you have a doctor? Do they know? Sounds like trouble. Sorry you're feeling crap.

Yes I have a treatment team and they are aware that I am struggling with that. It's definitely not helping with my bipolar at all. It's clearly affecting how the medications are working.

Charming, my heart is with you..........I am just coming out of a spell feeling like this. I find that alot of the cause of my agitation, tears, anger, negativity, is caused by anxiety. For whatever reason, it may or may not be a part of your BP. Do you have something you can take for anxiety that might calm you down just enough? Maybe take the edge off? have you ever tried meditation, quiet sitting with calming music and thinking of peaceful things?

I know this is so much easier said than done. When I feel like this I want to punch a hole in the wall, hurt myself, scream at people. I usually take some time to step back and try to focus. It takes alot of energy sweetie. This time, it helped alot to take more of my ativan during the day and avoid alot of "busy" places. Heck, I am even afraid to drive when I am dysphoric.

Others don't always understand and your friend would probably be hurt if you didnt go. Maybe you could tell her you are struggling alot but you really want to try to go for a while, set a time limit. At least then she knows you care. I think most times people think we just don't care when actually we are trying to protect them from our wrath.

You can do this, use your thoughts to help you through and try to focus on breathing when you begin to feel too agitated. Even if you have to take a step back or walk outside for a minute, give yourself the space.

Wishing you the best...............I know you can do it....xo

Can't identify on the eating thing except I hope it gets better! As mentioned before, music. Music sometimes sets me free, as if nothing else exists. I just...get into it and let it flow through me and I forget about all the sickness I have. I'm treated with medications as well. I've been in your shoes. Actually the last year my step-dad's daughter and her now husband got married and he asked me to stand up with him, I agreed. When it came time to try on tux's and all that shit I hit the point of not wanting to go, but couldn't let them down. I just had to go and get it over with. I sometimes myself go. I'll go days without a shower. Sometimes I think why shower when I don't ever leave the house?! So make ya laugh, I have alot of cologne that's pretty full still :) lol

Oh, and to add...I've had 3 break downs this week too, all over my best friends death which was in 2011. Of course, that never leaves a person.

have you any meds to take for anxiety, relaxation exercises etc? can you take regular breaks for a cigarette or to make a cell phonecall or something just to take a breath by yourself for five mins now and then. other than that as i say to my daughter, think of me in a karate suit ready to beat the crap out of anyone who is not nice to you makes her laugh because i am five feet four inches tall and about eight stone, so a gust of wind would blow me away.lol. it is the thought that counts.

I agree with Shelly. I get so irritable, especially when I start getting depressed. I have horrible anxiety and get aggitated lashing out at people and just knowing I have to stay away. Walmart is the worst place to be, lol. When find I'm like that I do listen to world flutes, meditation music and just read positive things. I used to run when I could and that helped a lot.

Anxiety medication is a must for me, I take Klonopin. I also agree that it's good for you to go and possibly communicate with your friend you're having a difficult time.