So, I have stopped taking the Abilify that Dr. ratchet put me on. I have not slept a full night since I started taking it. I took it for about a week, and even though my last dose was on Wednesday morning, I still could not sleep last night. I fell sleep for about an hour, and then I’m up. I see 1130, 1 o’clock, 230, and then I saw 4 o’clock. It makes me very angry. And I told the doctor’s nurse on Monday. And all they could say was well just keep taking it and see how it goes. So I did, and it didn’t get any better. I’m going to be honest I’m sick and tired of being a guinea pig for this guy. And I’m sick of his ego. He just wants to run the show, he doesn’t care what is happening to me as the patient, only what HE thinks.  I’m sorry, but I don’t think that that is a therapeutic relationship for me. In other news, I’ve been working part time as a bus aide on a school bus. This means that I have to be up at 5 o’clock to be to the bus garage by six. I work six to 830 in the morning, and then I have to be back at two, and then I work from 2 to 5. I have already caught a nasty cold, most likely from  be in close quarters with sick children for 5 1/2 hours a day. Oh well. I’m also waiting still to find out whether or not my disability claim is going to go through. All of this is very stressful to me. I feel very alone. I am not feeling suicidal anymore, at least for the time being thank the Lord.