Telling other people strikes my strictly personals as a lower priority than what you are telling yourself right now. Ouch. If you are taking votes, I vote that you start with being more gentle in your personal framing of the incident. To err is human. Give it some chew time and see if maybe there are some not-so-obvious lessons hiding in the bonehead shadows.

36 years of practice hasn't made confessing my bonehead stunts to my own boyfriend any easier, at all. I confess to **having forgotten** to tell him more than one of them just 'cause I couldn't handle the drama. I know how toxic secrets can be, so I make it a deliberate point to tell *Somebody.* Who I tell isn't as important as getting it out of the baggage car. There isn't much I can't tell my peer supporters, so sometimes just sharing in a post like this is enough.

Sigh. . . Anybody got a clear measure for the diff between discretion and justification? I pray --by many names-- on it. When I let go and let the healing mysteries lead the way, solutions seem to come from the damnedest places.

Big hug sweetie and I agree with Arf.... Why do you have to tell him anything.... I also believe what you're telling yourself is what's most important and what is the next decision you'll make
I would discuss this with your therapist though.... This person is there to help you through the tough times and to help you continue to make good choices.... Big hug and a blessing.....xo

People back slide sometimes. Do talk to your therapist. Big hugs.

Don't beat yourself up! So you made a mistake...we all make them. Learn and let live. I wouldn't tell the boyfriend - why make a big deal of it? You're your own person and some things can be kept to yourself!

Love yourself and proceed from a position of compassion not judgement....

Me, myself and I are three of the same, perhaps you could sit down, and pretend they are talking to themselves with compassion and forgiveness of a friend who is in pain. The confusion and pain carried, the fear and uncertainty are all a part of bp. Please try to be gentle with yourself and process the events with someone whom you trust. Mistakes in life are learning lessons, what have you learned? What was the cause, trigger? Healing love, and forgiveness prayers for you. ((Hugs))

I'm sure what happened. I drank the first beer and was feeling great, then I took the NyQuil but forgot that I drank the beer. Then my mood crashed and I drank another beer and NyQuil so that I would pass out.