I feel miserable! I came home from the company of very close friends who love me so much...I chose to come home early...I didn't want to be around them. I have never experienced a new years eve like this one.....ALONE! I am sitting here writing to you guys when I could be out fellowshiping with my close friends...why don't I feel like being around them anymore? What has happened to me? I plan on hiding out for a day maybe 2. I have busy schedule of fun stuff lined up for the week but I don't have any desire to go out and particapate in any activities...or be around my friends. This is an awful way to start the new years off. I am wondering if it is the new cocktail of meds I started last week? I only want to communicate here on DS where there is compassion and understanding. I can't find it outside of this circle anymore...why? Please someone give me some answers cause I feel like I'm sinking fast!! I am very depressed right now!!! aaaahhhh!!!!
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