getting out of bed every morning thinking about how I need to be careful of my thoughts and actions before my feet hit the floor! I'M TIRED of being an "actress" around "normal" people! I'M TIRED of my friends supporting words of "just remember, you'll get over it" when they have never been in a "box" and can't get out! I'M TIRED of my friends and family not being able to heal me! I'M TIRED of people who are nice to me when I don't feel nice back! I'M TIRED of my brain running me around in circles and I can never catch up! I'm tired of taking me meds! I am only 49....hhhmmmmm....a few times a day for the rest of my life....hhhmmmm...I better not go there! And most of all I'M TIRED of my bdoc who knows me better then I do!!! (He really is a blessing!) I'm tired friends.....if I can pry myself off of here I think I'll go lay down for a while......anyone else tired out there?????
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