Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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tats69 12/11/2010

Could sure use some help right now.

I've been trying to stay busy all day today.....I've cooked, baked, cleaned, and went for a ride to look at Christmas lights.....I just can't stop thinking about suicide and I'm just as calm as I could be. Feeling extremely empty and "flat"......and the thoughts won't leave my head.

katiebelle1091 12/11/2010

I am so sorry you feel like that and have these thoughts. Can you contact your pdoc ??? You may need a med tweak .

deleted_user 12/11/2010

I've been there. I usually talk to my husband about it. Sometimes I take an extra Klonopin to calm me down. I take a shower and just watch some good TV to take me out of my own head for awhile.

Usually for me, they go away on their own. I wish you the best. We are all here for you Tats.

vickybea 12/11/2010

sounds like you need a med tweek l agree with katie or at least talk this through with your pdoc, you don't want things to get worse

tats69 12/11/2010

Thanks katie.....my pdoc has no after hours anything to reach him. All er calls are directed to the hospital. Really don't want to end up there again.....

I don't know who to call....

deleted_user 12/11/2010

That sucks. My doc has a pager and I page him and he calls back in no time. I don't want you in the hospital. Do you think if you took some Klonopin and talked to someone close to you, that it might help?

deleted_user 12/11/2010

tats, well at least you're doing the right things. Keeping busy and such.
I hope it passes soon. If it gets really serious, then maybe a trip to the ER is in order. But I understand if you don't want to go.
Do you think it's really serious? Do you have a plan and all of that?

tats69 12/11/2010

I'd like to go for a walk but I'm having trouble leaving the house and my son won't go with me....

I'm embarrassed for even having written this post but I don't know what else to do......I'm so lonely and feel very empty. I called my dbt coordinator and he told me to go for a walk but I can't get out of the house.

vickybea 12/11/2010

l found a crisis place that had a local number so l could talk to a Dr l googled it, may be worth a try

tats69 12/11/2010

I took 1 1/2 klonopin already to see if that would help....but keep thinking about taking the entire bottle.....

Yeah I'm really trying here.....but don't have anyone close to me to call. I'm a real good isolator and my one friend is at work.

vickybea 12/11/2010

l think you should call the hospital its not the same as going in but at least listen to what they have to say

deleted_user 12/11/2010

Good idea Vicky. Tats, try that. I'm worried about you. Good luck and if you HAVE to go to the hospital, then you have to. But I understand your trepidation.

tats69 12/11/2010

I'm worried about me too.....

I'll see if I can find a number to call....if I call the hosp. they'll send the police. Don't want my son to have to see that....sigh

ZanyBeeper 12/11/2010

Hey sweetie. Perhaps, you should take a dose of Seroquel and go to bed. Maybe things will be better in the morning. Love ya!!

deleted_user 12/11/2010

When I feel like that I try to go to sleep and hope when I wake up the feelings and thoughts have passed. I have kids too so I can understand, but if all else fails I wouldn't hesitate to call and get the help I needed.

deleted_user 12/11/2010

I would first try to talk to a crisis line, just to vent. They are often able to help us see clearly, when the waters are muddy.

Next, I would contact a close friend or family family to see if they can help you out.

If both those routes fail, then I would consider going to the hospital.

Hugs,

Christa

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