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hi sorry you are feeling bad. You might want to repost this as a normal post - advice topics tend to disappear very quickly. Hopefully my reply will keep it on the board a little longer.

Can I ask if Seroquel is the first medication they've tried to use with you? At the very least, I'd be surprised if they didn't have you on something to go along with it. I've never taken it, but those I know who have - every last one of them - have said it screwed with their ability to get on with their lives.

I might suggest demanding your doctor change your meds, and if she won't, find a new doctor. My experience has been that bipolar folks do better with both an antidepressant and a stabilizer, rather than only one med.

As for finding company to keep, some of the best friends I've ever made have come from time spent volunteering for a cause. You're guaranteed to have something in common with them, because at the very least you both believe in the work you're doing.

I'm glad you have this support group to reach out to when feeling upset. It helps just to get those thoughts out of your head and into the open. We can help one another bear each others burden. Sometimes we have to slog through as time helps to ease and heal our situation. I do however understand how you feel about wishing you had a significant other there to speak to when down. I have my counselor to speak to and that helps some. My love life is up and down as well and it is hard to bear the "action urges" certain situations trigger. Like I have strong impluses to contact the romantic interest and do sometimes on the spur of the moment, when in emotional mind, and then feel uncomfortable about that later. Like my impulsivity is showing-reminding him that I am quite bipolar. It's me judging myself. Which triggers sadness. Relationships can be complicated and cause multiple feelings to arise for sure. Maybe getting involved more with friends would help to support and distract you in a positive way. Or foster a new hobby. I just read that when a person in up in emotional mind that doing something logical really helps. Like for instance resesrching all the local coffee shops ( or something like that-even gas stations) to find out one each has to offer is a great exercise in being logical. It helps to balance out the mind. Personally I have found that when I have a project to work on I feel so much better emotionally. Maybe it could help you too. Sending hugs and support your way!