I recently told the minister about Brads death and his reply was "What did you do?" Why is suicide everyones fault? And why blame me? Noone knows the sheer horror that I was through from May 8 to May 22nd.Brad was so drinking heavily and I couldnt stop him and I tried to sober him up.I also found out recently that several things that he told me were lies...12 and half years down the drain.First of all---I am bi polar 2...I have got the mania and i also like to do new things and experiecne new foods and such.I tried sushi the other day and you know what...I wasnt impressed! I cant see why these people in seattle was spending big bucks on this.I had the shrimp tempure and it was good....but you have to be careful cause it hurt your stomach.Why are all the religionous people blaming us bi polar people? First of all...if someone commits suicide...it is not your fault.The person who does this is very very selfish.They want to get out of their pain and sometimes life can be stressful..but Brad failed to see the mess that he got me and his sister in.His sister had to clean up his mess.And it took her a great deal of time.I finally got some funds of my own...We sold the motorcycle back to the dealer.Brad left me with limited funds and with very little money.The cars had to be sold cause it cost 2600.00 to cremate him and none of us had the money.Brad left nothing when it came to money.I got zero.And i was on the verge of being homeless with 3 cats and a great deal of stuff that it could take me 2 months to move.I feel a bit responsbile because Brad and i were not speaking..but if you want to experience hell...have someone take their life and you will and i mean will experience hell on earth and this is my advice...DONT DO IT!