Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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XForTheLoveOFX 11/11/2010

an utter failure. I'm looking up classes online for college next semester and there is a big part of me that thinks i can't do this....but i want to try. I've failed at everything else in my life there has to be something here for me. or maybe there just isn't. I am so worried about finances I applied for student aid but they don't tell you what you get until AFTER you have registered for classes.. At least that is what I was told. I want to try and make something of myself. I want to push through this and break the screaming in my head. If i don't at least try then I think i will continue to fall. I guess my big question is any of this really worth it? Or am I just kidding myself. Lately I look inside myself and see nothing there. and it is just plain scary.

deleted_user 11/11/2010

It's totally worth it.
Imagine how amazing you're going to feel when it's all underway and you're accomplishing things you never thought you'd be able to.

Stay strong and keep telling yourself that you'll make it through to the other side, because you will.

deleted_user 11/11/2010

you wont know the answers to these questions until after you've tried, but i really admire your guts.
yes, get used to macaroni and cheese being a main staple, but it sounds like you're in a bit of a shitty spot right now, so having little money is nothing compared to satisfaction and peace of mind, and just challenging yourself to become a more enriched person.
pretty cool idea.

tommymott 11/12/2010

Go for it! Try to set up a schedule that's as low-stress as possible.

deleted_user 11/12/2010

You will never know what you can achieve without trying and having a positive attitude about it....if you are ill, not stable, maybe your meds need tweaking, in order to continue with education.....good luck.

deleted_user 11/12/2010

It's better to be working toward something than nothing. Every class you take gives you something new to work with in the world.

Chanel22 11/12/2010

I think you can do it! :big hugs:

RDMyers65 11/12/2010

I actually miss college. Having something to focus on helped. I loved to learn things. I've always been happiest learning things.

XForTheLoveOFX 11/12/2010

i feel much better today i just found out that my financial aid is covering everything but the cost of books and supplies!!!!!!! and thats all stuff i can write off in taxes..im so happy i could die.

deleted_user 11/12/2010

I am a living example that despite the shit I deal with, I can do it and so can you. You have to want it badly, work your ass off, and have a passion for it, besides just taking your meds and carrying forward with positive lifestyle behaviors.

Good luck

deleted_user 11/12/2010

i wish the best ofluck to you, i hope your classes go well

Suninbloom 11/12/2010

You're not kidding yourself.. You can do this. Manic is just your minds way of dealing with what you need to do. Depression is your mind needing a rest. Knowing this you can go forward and handle what steps you need to follow. They can't charge you for anything because they know you are getting aid so relax about that.

I'm going to be going back to the uni in January too. I need to get on the ball with some stuff. Thanks for reminding me :)

deleted_user 11/12/2010

X, just be patient with yourself and try to do things in baby steps. I think you can do more than you know but you have to do it at your own speed. I took for----ever to get my degree but I finally finished it after 20 years. I'm not saying you'll take that long but that you have to go at your own pace. That is the key to success is knowing how much you can handle.

olenka1 11/12/2010

It's worth it.You never know what you are capable of until you try.I did a degree in sports science before I was even dx'd with bp, so you can do it.

deleted_user 11/12/2010

I could be happier for you!!!
HUgs my friend
dee

deleted_user 11/12/2010

aww so glad your financial aid came through! school can be tough for us beepers! remember to do the best you can! try to get accommodations if you think you will need them! goodluck and i'm really excited for youuuu

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