Massive hug for you sweetie... Please don't do this!!

I have gone through a lot of what you're describing to the point of not having a home at all and no possessions left
Another door opened... Another door always opens please just believe me for now until it opens for you

If you need to be on disability for now so be it!!... That means there's help for you
And one huge thing that I've found out going through losing all of my material things is that it's just stuff and in the grand scheme of things it really isn't important at all

Your daughter has several months to seek other help out there and from what I've seen people write on DS is that there's quite a bit of help available

You have kids who love you sweetie and you are so highly thought of here... Please hang on... If you're in crisis please call a line or go to emerg

Huge hug for you sweetie... You are in my prayers....xo

Divine, it sounds like there is so much going on in your life right now. So many changes can be very scary. I know it feels like you are losing things, losing a way of life that you are accustomed to. We place so many expectations on ourselves along with those that other have of us. This is and will be a difficult time for you. Change is never easy especially when it means feeling like we are giving up so much.

There is no shame in being on disability, no shame in not providing "everything" for others. It isn't fair that your life has to change so much and it is painful, but you can be strong through this. Stronger than you realize. Maybe this will be a time to reflect on your inner strength and realize that you don't have to be all/do all. There is still a lot of joy to feel and a lot of gifts you have to share. You are not changing "you", just the way you will live your life.

You are worth living and you are worth knowing who you are as a person. Your identity is not what you have or give, but who you are sweetie. Be kind to yourself and slow down, breathe, and take it one step at a time. xo

B)

I also wanted to say that as bad as all this feels today, there will be another day that it won't feel as bad. Your doc is not giving up on you or your situation, she see's what you need right now and she is trying to help you find a solution. It may not be permanent, it may be temporary until you can find more stability.

I would be very upset too if I was having to face all the changes that you are. It won't be easy but if you see the possibilities in all of the changes as an opportunity to do something different, it may be a smoother transition for you. There are answers and solutions for each change, I promise. xo

**HUGS**

I haven't lost all my possessions, but I have gone from being a competent worker to not working at all. Eventually, I became able to work part-time for far less money than I was making in the corporate world. It sucks. Losing that sense of competency really sucks.

I agree with what Jan said. There is help out there. I think there's even help with health insurance in most states. I know there is where I live if you have a certain income level.

**HUGS**

Thank you for all the kind words and all the hugs. I am not doing much better but will go to the hospital if necessary. I think I will tell my pdoc to set up the ECT. I am at the end of my rope with this depression and none of the meds we have tried in the last 6 months have done diddly squat. My medical runs out Dec 31 so I have to do it now while I still have coverage.

Hope if you do go to the hospital you get good care thats both caring and efficient, effective for you. There's a saying in "Recovery" Just when you think you're at the end of your rope, the rope lengthens. I would contact a good disabilty lawyer to see what your options are.