I feel bad*

No honey :( you are not a waste of life! You cannot help being depressed, it's our brain chemistry and it's lying to you.

Please try and eat something, not eating is not good for your brain sweets.

Can you make an emergency appt with your pdoc? Maybe a tweak is in order?

I'm not on meds ATM cuz they make gain weight and I can't handle that

Its really ridiculous how awful I feel...idk what to do..cuz I bring the upon myself by not taking meds

Well there are such things as weight neutral meds. I had my pdoc put me on all weight neutral meds and my weight is flying off. Please don't feel bad. Its just the depression talking to you. ((HUGS)) You may not matter to yourself, but you matter to us.

Worse or less off, our pain is significant. It's hard to think of the pain of others when you've just stepped on a nail. I relate, I understand, but hopefully this mood will pass before long. But hey, who am i kidding. what little life and hope i have fell apart again.

(((Itz)))~~

I know how it feels to have every thought and emotion be negative. It reminds me of swirling toilet bowl water -- once it starts it just keeps going. The end of the flush comes eventually and hopefully you'll get a break from all the stuff that's bombarding you right now.

Do you have an eating disorder? I didn't see it mentioned on your profile but we know that good nutrition is one of the keys to our stability.

Have you thought about getting some professional help? Hang in there!

How many of us have said those kinds of things, at one time or another.
All those horrible things you think about yourself are not true. It is the illness making you believe them.

It sounds like you NEED to be medicated. If you are gaining weight from the ones you are supposed to be taking now, tell your Pdoc you want to be put on different ones.

If you are starving yourself on a daily basis and choose to stay off all medications because they MIGHT make you gain weight, you need to get help for your attitude towards food and how it affects your body.

I'm sorry you are feeling so terrible right now. I hope you feel better soon!!!! (((((Hugs)))))

Your life is yours. All that is expected of you is to live your life to the best of your abilities.That is your own local life.

Your mental state will strengthen and the world-view will form with the perspective that will pertain to your life. Yet, you can do the things you want to do without feeling that homogenisation.The guilts.
You can be yourself and still make a difference.

When the mind is tired and ill...it sees distortions that skew judgement and perception.

I hope you get the help you want.


It's a good step you came here. I've heard these concerns and you have to understand that you can do it and you will be able to be yourself.

Your friends and family love you and they want you to be you

thank u everyone for replying..

Shelby: i do have an eating disorder i was diagnosed with EDNOS ..its really bad sicne november...i cant handle eating ..i dont wanna deal with it..i dont want any meds cuz i cant lose weight on any of em even tho they are weight neutral

Your brain is lying to you.. remind yourself that.. right notes and put them around your house if you have to..