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But I think right now I really am just being lazy.
I don't feel depressed and I'm not tired either. I have a butt load of house work to do but I just don't want to do it plan and simple. I've been playing on the internet all day. I was at least being creative this morning (I was drawing my own anime fantasy thing). But that didn't even last long at all.
I really haven't even done anything I'd normally enjoy doing other than watching loads of youtube videos and waiting for a movie to slowly down load.
I don't feel depressed so I really just can't believe that I am depressed. I just don't feel motivated to do jack. But the problem is my to do list is backing up and there are some important things on that list.
Is this from a lack of motivation?
or just plain good old fashion laziness?
I even doubled up on my ADD meds thinking that was the problem. Good news is I feel awake bad news is I still don't wanna do dishes or fix my bed.
Also I noticed my sleep meds are taking longer and longer to kick in. I'm suspicious because the pills look different from what they normally look like.
I'd swear though I feel like my pills just aren't working or helping any more. and my lamictal was just increased still nothing. It worked like a magic charm for me before. I was magically just able to do every thing that needed done with out any effort or extra motivation at all.
So what are your opinions please? Do I need a med adjustment or am I really just lazy after all?
I don't feel depressed and I'm not tired either. I have a butt load of house work to do but I just don't want to do it plan and simple. I've been playing on the internet all day. I was at least being creative this morning (I was drawing my own anime fantasy thing). But that didn't even last long at all.
I really haven't even done anything I'd normally enjoy doing other than watching loads of youtube videos and waiting for a movie to slowly down load.
I don't feel depressed so I really just can't believe that I am depressed. I just don't feel motivated to do jack. But the problem is my to do list is backing up and there are some important things on that list.
Is this from a lack of motivation?
or just plain good old fashion laziness?
I even doubled up on my ADD meds thinking that was the problem. Good news is I feel awake bad news is I still don't wanna do dishes or fix my bed.
Also I noticed my sleep meds are taking longer and longer to kick in. I'm suspicious because the pills look different from what they normally look like.
I'd swear though I feel like my pills just aren't working or helping any more. and my lamictal was just increased still nothing. It worked like a magic charm for me before. I was magically just able to do every thing that needed done with out any effort or extra motivation at all.
So what are your opinions please? Do I need a med adjustment or am I really just lazy after all?
Functioning is just being and feelin OK with it.
I have come to terms with my cleaning habits.
I rarely do it!
BUT, I make sure that when it is time to get it done... it is done. Whether it takes me a day or a whole week.
There are other things I could focus on, that you could focus on.
Stop thinking about what you havent done, and start thinging about what you are going to do. But dont impead your thought process by bumbarding yourself with to do's.
It only promotes the despare of not being willing or even able, to get your butt into gear.
Its fine, and if someone complains about the mess... tell em...
"the wash cloth is over there, your welcome to it"
Ha!
Relax, watch that movie, do something for youself, and feel free of the "chores" you impart on yourself. Just breath and be.
HUGZ! Your not lazy!!!!
Sometimes... we stifle ourselves just by thinking. Stop thinkin for today. :)
Give your meds some more time. :) and if no effect.... talk to your doc. :)
(oh yeah and then when you do get the energy to clean, you will be soooo super happy with yourself and feel proud. Thats what I am feelin right now. LOL.... I waited alllll week to clean a single thing, but the man of the house is coming home and I want him to feel comfortable and happy)
sry... I am really here and there.. Im kinda.... hyper... almost.... manic like. BLAH! I like this part of my rapid cycling... until the thoughts come too toooo fast.
ok BYE
I listen to LOUD LOUD MUSIC!
I pay myself!! LOL... seriously
Inner dialogue: If you wash up the dishes... you can have a 20 spot to go to the sally anne with!!!
Or I treat myself to a sode (as I dont drink soda most at all but love it) and some chocolate!!! its rewarding to wash the tub with mouth full! hahahahah.... (i dont do this often but it works)
... sorry...if I am overwhelming you with my... up beated.. ness. Im totally high or something. I wasnt feeling this just 4 hours ago. Sheesh. Its really exhausting.
I still don't want to admit it's laziness but I really don't know what else it could be. all though it is true I still don't feel 100% but I feel better than last week so no I don't think I'm over medicated. Last week I was sleeping all the time and I almost went to the hospital because I was so depressed I wanted to die. Or I was wanting to use drugs again.
When those two things happen than I know I need a med adjustment. Which I got what I asked for now I don't know why I just don't feel like doing any thing. I keep waiting for that magical moment to happen when I get up and start doing stuff. Usually that's how it happens. I just get up and magically I do every thing I need to with out thinking about it.
Maybe it is because I'm thinking about it too much.