I am feeling very angry right now. And in agony. I just had an MRI to see why I am in so much pain. And even though I am in severe pain, I offered to sit at the hospital and wait while my mother’s husband is in emergency surgery because my mother is unable to come up. I was at the hospital getting my MRI done anyway. WHEN I OFFERED, I got screamed that “I don’t like her”. WTH???!! Ummm....I told her I was trying to be NICE (something she doesn’t know anything about). Her reply was “don’t try so hard”. I think I will take her advice. I love my mother despite the way she treats me, but she really needs to think about what will happen if her husband dies before she does. I cannot and will not take care of her. I know I sound HORRIBLE. I’m sorry if I over shared, but I am just in need of a pep talk.
Frank Zappa had the answer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYm_2oCVdSM
i am really overwhelmed. I just started a new job on January 3rd. I have been in SEVERE pain with my back, my mother has been a nightmare. And I’m withdrawing from major psych meds. I feel like I’m losing it. I cry ALL the time. I never cry, but it has been bad in the past four days. I even cried in the bathroom today at work. I tried to call my pdoc today, but I can’t get in until the 28th...