Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I feel like I don't really know how to be an adult even though I'm 50. I can't seem to keep it together.
I've had a terrible life. I was bullied a through school. My mom was a severe alcoholic. My parents fought all the time. My 1st marriage ended in divorce. That's a long story for another time. My last husband died of cancer. I didn't have much support or comfort during that time. Now I live with toxic people because I have nowhere else to go.
I've tried to improve my life but nothing really works out. All Vocational Rehab could get me was a part time fast food job.
I'm worn out and wish I had someone to take care of me even though I know I should take care of myself.
I just don't know what I'm doing. I don't know how to live like a successful adult not to mention a stable one.
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In all it's splendid colour!!I'm up for a very short time I hope...It's too early for me but I always seem to have these early awake times where I'm not quite ready to get upAnother chore day for me as I didn't get done all I wanted to yestetdayI hope that your day is blessed...xo
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
I hate that you're living with toxic people; that can bring you down and weaken your defenses. Is there nowhere else to go?
I don't like Adulting very much. Its not fun, though I do it every day.
I'd just rather not, but for me, if I let down my guard and let my prior thoughts come in and stay around, I'd end up in a mental institution. I'm not strong enough anymore to keep pushing through the bipolar states.
So I Adult, every day. I'm not happy about where I am now but I hold on to Happy thoughts from my past to ground me, and let go of shit that piles up during the day.
Its very freeing to let go.
Regarding finding another place. I'm very afraid of becoming homeless. Even though my living situation in great, a least it's a place to stay for now.
The thought of moving, again, scares to heck out of me. I'm not sure what part of moving is so scary to me. It's a lot of work so that's unpleasant. Also, housing is so expensive. It's hard to find anything affordable. I've been on a housing waiting list for a couple years now. Those lists are so long. I have relatives but I assume they wouldn't want to take my son and I in. I know my dad hasn't offered my son and I a place to stay because his live-in girlfriend doesn't want us there. They live in the house I grew up in.
I feel so trapped in misery because I don't really know how to get out.
Thank you for the reply.