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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I Don't Know.

HannaHana
HannaHana
Last night I was in a particularly emotional mood. I was upset over something that happened and I wanted to talk to my friend.

I saw my friend on skype and immediately called. First words to come out of their mouth was "What? You feel like cutting? Then grab a razor and cut!!!"

Yeah, I'm a cutter, but haven't cut in a few months....and I had no particular urge to cut last night....until I spoke with my friend. I cried....which is not typical of me. He saw that, and I simply said, I have to go and hung up. I cried for a good while after that.

I feel like I can't talk to my "normie" friends about anything b/c they don't understand how things affect me.

I don't know. I guess this is just a rant.
HannaHana
HannaHana
The thing is....this person is BP, is one of my closest friends and has been for years. I had no desire to cut whatsoever.

They just came out and said that instead of "hey, what's up?".

Thanks for the new # Ev.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It is amazing how people can say things to us, even the ones who are supposed to "get it", and hurt us. I am so sorry this happened to you. I had a similar situation with a friend last night. I am sure he has no clue that he hurt my feelings.

But here I sit thinking about it still this A.M. All I want to do is call or text him and tell him what an asshole he was to me but that will serve little purpose (other than to make me feel better in the short term).

Hope you feel better soon. Hugs xo
HannaHana
HannaHana
I don't know anyone on here anymore Ev. Everyone is new to me. I suppose I'd better re-introduce myself b/c no one knows who I am anymore. Where are all the oldies that know me??
HannaHana
HannaHana
Thank you Monaleesa. I really appreciate your support.

The person I spoke to knows me....and has to know that this hurt. Who says something like that?? I don't get it. What did I do??
deleted_user
deleted_user
Ugh. That is the worst. I don't know the answers but only that sometimes people get so bogged down in their own stuff and just don't think how their words affect others. It is such a shame. Can you talk to him calmly about how his words hurt since you all are close? Maybe that would give him an opportunity to apologize?
HannaHana
HannaHana
I'm afraid my friend is in the midst of an episode. There is no talking to them.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Ok...just some thoughts. Maybe at some point you can have a talk with your friend but for now I know it hurts a lot. Try to hang in there. I know it is easier said than done though. Hugs xo
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Things change around here pretty quickly smile.. if Im off for a couple of days I dont know too many people..
You are probably right about your friend.. I thought it sounded like someone who is plain pissed off and wants to hurt someone and you showed up.. if they're in the middle of an episode it explains it... I hope the cry helped.. sometimes I find letting things go and having a good cry cathartic..big hug for you
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