Ok I live in Arizona covid is real bad right now, hospitals are overwhelming. My friends who are nurses call me non stop because I listen to their horrible stories. I had covid and still am not right I worked on the covid floor. You can not breath no oxygen or a vent or meds will make you feel you are getting enough oxygen. You literally feel like you fucking drowning. I am sorry I'm being so damn blunt but people need to understand. So saying all this I live on this big ranch style property with my friend Chris who lives mikes down the dirt road. It is a dairy/ orchard ranch but besides the point ....so tomorrow is Father's Day and I do want to say for all the fathers out there happy Father's Day. So what is going on is a fucking BBQ now when we have a BBQ ends up with fifty or more people. A lot of people will wonder inside because it is supposed to be close to 110 so it is to damn hot outside and no heat doesn't kill covid. What the hell is wrong with people. I have to see my mother in the beginning of July who is turning 89 so I'm staying far away and I can't stand the sight of my mother. Like I said you wouldn't want this virus on your worst enemy. I'm so angry I'm shaking. When I say my peace they just look at me like well don't come. I say nope I'm not but guess what if any of you get sick I will not be able to handle it. They are my family and love them to death. There will be a couple of older fathers here and I say if you love them please I don't want that type of love. I'm sure they think I'm just upset because I lost my father five years ago and yes he was my best friend and it is a very difficult day but if he was alive I would hug and kiss him through the window because I love him. That is what you do and they all think I, the crazy one. It is like I live in a different world than these people. Than as I'm leaving they asked if my kids would be there I laughed and asked if they heard one fucking thing I said. I replied no I probably will go for a long day drive because they will be screaming wanting to go to the party and no explaining to a year old twins about social distancing.
ok sorry I'm just so so frustrated I just don't get it. I thought we loved each other but I guess I'm a fool. What a joke.maybe I am alone in this world it sure feels like it. All right after bitching I really do wish all the fathers out there a happy Father's Day. It might me different this year but it is different because you are loved and that is a great thing. Hope everyone has a great weekend and I apologize again for being so blunt. It is just not worth taking a chance with this disease. I write it because I really do care about people on this site. Namaste Pema
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