Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
Ok I live in Arizona covid is real bad right now, hospitals are overwhelming. My friends who are nurses call me non stop because I listen to their horrible stories. I had covid and still am not right I worked on the covid floor. You can not breath no oxygen or a vent or meds will make you feel you are getting enough oxygen. You literally feel like you fucking drowning. I am sorry I'm being so damn blunt but people need to understand. So saying all this I live on this big ranch style property with my friend Chris who lives mikes down the dirt road. It is a dairy/ orchard ranch but besides the point ....so tomorrow is Father's Day and I do want to say for all the fathers out there happy Father's Day. So what is going on is a fucking BBQ now when we have a BBQ ends up with fifty or more people. A lot of people will wonder inside because it is supposed to be close to 110 so it is to damn hot outside and no heat doesn't kill covid. What the hell is wrong with people. I have to see my mother in the beginning of July who is turning 89 so I'm staying far away and I can't stand the sight of my mother. Like I said you wouldn't want this virus on your worst enemy. I'm so angry I'm shaking. When I say my peace they just look at me like well don't come. I say nope I'm not but guess what if any of you get sick I will not be able to handle it. They are my family and love them to death. There will be a couple of older fathers here and I say if you love them please I don't want that type of love. I'm sure they think I'm just upset because I lost my father five years ago and yes he was my best friend and it is a very difficult day but if he was alive I would hug and kiss him through the window because I love him. That is what you do and they all think I, the crazy one. It is like I live in a different world than these people. Than as I'm leaving they asked if my kids would be there I laughed and asked if they heard one fucking thing I said. I replied no I probably will go for a long day drive because they will be screaming wanting to go to the party and no explaining to a year old twins about social distancing.
ok sorry I'm just so so frustrated I just don't get it. I thought we loved each other but I guess I'm a fool. What a joke.maybe I am alone in this world it sure feels like it. All right after bitching I really do wish all the fathers out there a happy Father's Day. It might me different this year but it is different because you are loved and that is a great thing. Hope everyone has a great weekend and I apologize again for being so blunt. It is just not worth taking a chance with this disease. I write it because I really do care about people on this site. Namaste Pema
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Ever since I stopped doing therapy because of insurance, I've been feeling that old tense and irritable sense of anxiety and stress. I hate that. I was making so many strides and changes during therapy, my therapist would acknowledge all of my progress and accomplishments, and I miss that reassurance. Today I thought about it, and I made those changes! She would always tell me that I chose to...
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
Glad that you lived through COVID. I just got tested for my third time yesterday
I am Blessed to have a Beautiful Friend who sent this to me today...Pema,...
I'm sending the love and light to all here on ds that you will find peace and healing in all areas of your life for Your Highest Good.
I Get It!!! I'm just so Sad for the Country, I'm Angry for our Country. The World that selfish behavior is overtaking common courtesy and common sense.
Last night I listened to Carolyn Myss, a spiritual medical intuitive who I've followed 30 years or so...something she said just hit me in my gut.
Every Person is in some way responsible for healing another person. It's called Humanness...a need to be a 'part of'' because living in isolation is So So Bad for all areas of our health...
For some stupid silly reason, people who are out with no mask, are like your babies...they don't understand social distancing...at least Not Until The Virus Hits Them In The Face, themselves or someone they love or know.
On I 95 where I live there is are signs for Amber Alerts...today's message is Drive The Speed Limit, Help Our Medical Heros. Some will drive the speed limit no matter what, some might slow down when reading the sign and other will drive 90 mph right past the sign, totally oblivious of the law,
And then there are Old Farts Like me who drive Below the speed limit...lol...to conserve gas, and the environment and save money....with her hand out a window giving the Peace Symbol to cars that pass me....Or I smile at someone, yes 6' apart and talk about the weather which is Beautiful....
Yesterday, I opened my mouth to people around me, this is not easy for me, but due to the insanity of our Country at the moment, I feel the need to Speak, to Give Others The opportunity to Be Heard. Why? Because So Much of what is happening now is All Fear Based...push back against authority...not wearing a mask...It's all about the fear of no control...so people push back against medical advice and don't wear a mask.
God willing, those of us who choose to Speak Up, will be heard...Prayers in Progress for the World's Highest Good,.. So yes, because of you, Chris and the many people I know in my world, for the respect for another human being, I will wear a mask for the rest of my life if need be...it's the right thing to do.
I think people who work in or have worked in healthcare see this much differently
I agree completely with you and that's how I'm living
My landlord is a social butterfly and it has been driving him crazy so he's been social distance visiting a lot and it scares me to some degree
I know he's trying to be safe and I see others that are being cavalier and I find that upsetting as well
I saw a Dr Phil show a week ago talking about grief and a woman was on that first lost her brother.... then her mom and dad and he husband was on life support
I think some believe we're actually dealing with a 'regular' flu... sigh
There needs to be some balance with mental health as well however I think not following rules set out by public health is really foolish and this will never be contained
I'm praying for a vaccine.... Big hug and a blessing.... I am so glad that you survived this terrible virus.... xo