Please before you do anything, can we talk

I know how you feel, im only 16 and have felt like this for so long, im almost always planning on how to do it, and have written so many goodbye letters. I dont know what to do anymore, but I dont want anything, I just dont. I was taken out of school a month ago when I ended up in the hospital, people just got scared of what I was telling them of how I felt. I've been on so many meds, but I only feel worse evry day. It breaks my heart evry time I think of doing it to the people I love, and the fact that my 78 year old gran, whom I love most in this world, wont survive throu me doing "it" I just dont know anymore, and I dont want to feel like this anymore

Please reach out. I've been where you are. After two comas 16 months apart (caused by massive overdoses), I am still here, physically impaired but thank God intellectually normal. I could have been left a vegetable. That's a fate worse than death. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And that's assuming it works! Please don't risk it. Talk to people. Go to hospital. Get on medication. Zyprexa and Cymbalta saved my life. I am happy now, a different person. There is HOPE.

I appreciate you trying but for me I am on medication and it doesn't seem to work anymore. I know bp has no cure and that it is permanent. I'm not exactly sure why my brain can't handle stress of any kind, I think it just wore out.

Please don't give up!!! Your son and everyone who knows you LOVES YOU!!!!!!! I AM PRAYING FOR YOU!!!!!!

Jennifer. God made you with a plan and a purpose. I don't know what you are going through now, but I have been close to the brink, and I have been taught to cherish life and myself as I am. Believe me, no one should have to suffer the loss of a loved one. Before you do something drastic, think of how your son and your family and friends would feel. They love you. Please give life and God a chance.
Hugs,
Lynn

Jenn you've been depressed before and you have been better before. Stay in the moment, looking ahead will do no good, you have no control over what has not happened yet. You know this well, as the course BP runs. You have managed for 18yrs being a single parent to an Asperger boy. Yesterday was a tough day for you going to SS and getting signed up. Of course you feel tired out , so give yourself a break, find something that brings you comfort and hope.

Think about what you have lived "Through", and what you have learned...you may not feel strong, but you are and you are smart too. Would you be willing to give someone you trust a call. Reach out and have faith that your depression will turn. I know it is hard, but can you Make Yourself do something, go somewhere and give your mind a break, focus on something? If you are feeling suicidal, you can choose to be alone and fret/fear, or you can choose to call a friend to take you to hospital or you can reach out to call a crisis hot line.

There are things "Only You Can Do", DS offers you support, but you have the decision to make about your life. Prayers and love to you, I hope you will have sweet dreams tonight and wake tomorrow with a bit more hope....((((hugs))) from your Mom to an aspie friend :-)

Big hug for you... Please reach out for the help that you need... If your meds aren't working now then maybe you need to see your pdoc for a tweak... or if you're feeling suicidal you can go to emerg or call 911.... There is good help to be had.... Feeling suicidal is a symptom of our illness that can be treated.... What would you say to your son if he wrote this??... I hope you'll tell yourself the same thing... Big hug and a blessing....xo

Thank you everyone.