OH NO!! I hate feeling that bad! Do you have an anti anxiety pill you can take to take the edge off?

Yeah I do, would that help?

I have gotten the feeling in my veins before but worse... I had it bad in the veins in my neck, my inner elbow, and my wrists and I kept getting flashes of cutting them open, which made me cringe and freak out.

Man, nights are terrible for me, I feel anxious and lonely like I have been lately. Scared even.

Maybe I should just take an anti anxiety pill and go to bed... sleep if I can.

You are not alone....we are all right here for you(((hugs))). Is certainly could be the wellbutrin but I know you have trouble at night time so it could just be anxiety....definitely take whatever med you have for the anxiety.

I have trouble at night time too with paranoia and anxiety and I always have my klonopin handy, I just took one actually. Just hand out here with us and keep posting so you don't feel so alone.....it helps me out alot!

Thank you:) severely.

I'm going to take the med and come back.

Sounds good Grenadine, will be here waiting for ya!! *smile*

I know this might sound pathetic.... but I wish I had a boyfriend who loved me dearly and who would take care of me in moments like these and make me feel happy and not lonely.

My philosophy right now is work on myself everyday and get better and better and healthier and go to therapy and work on all my issues and learn to be happy on my own and make myself feel happy not needing anyone else to do so. To be independent.

Yet, I want someone to be there for me. Like a significant other.....

And you will find that significant other when the time is right for it to happen. I think it's great that you are working on yourself right now and trying to get things right for yourself!!!!

THe right man will come along when it's meant to happen, I truly believe that!!

I know, me too... I guess I just wish he was here with me tonight... or lately anyway...

I have great family and friends though... they keep me on my toes.

But when I fail... I get really down on myself and feel like "such and idiot" I say that all the time.

I don't realize that I'm only human and everyone makes mistakes like these not just 'ol bipolar me.

My biggest problem is my insecurities and me putting myself down and being hard on myself all the time.

I don't know if this is why I have so much anger, agitation, and anxiety or if it's my medication.

It's prob a litlte mix of both......I've noticed there are ALOT of people around here that are way to hard on themselves....myself included.

We have alot to deal with at times...and it's easy to slip into that "beat yourself up mode". Takes work but realizing we do it is the first step in fixing it right!!?

Yes, awareness is key!

But I have a lot to be grateful for. Which keeps me positive. I have a great family, very supportive, I have few friends but they are great ones and very supportive and caring. I live with my family, but which they live in a beautiful home, I am very fortunate for that. Well educated (up until now, I find I am unable to learn) And you know..... charisma, charm, looks..... not that it all works out in my favor all the time. I'm also gullable and naive... definitely very gullable... and trusting!! Ah...! Turns out badly for me.

I like myself.. I guess I just wish I were perfect... or better.

Never good enough really. It's sad. I focus on the bad stuff most times and just feel insecure.

What's the cure?

Love... that's what I think... it's just hard to forgive and love yourself sometimes.

Hey, the sensation in my wrist is gone... thank you anti anxiety medication :)

Glad you are feeling better!!! Awesome!!!

I wake up every day and repeat to myself the things in my life I am grateful for.....I think that is so important to do....really helps me out when I start that negative self talk too!

Sometimes it's hard to tell yourself good things when you don't believe them to be true.

I have body image issues and just... image issues and I don't think I'll ever be able to say "beautiful". There are too many things wrong and unattractive about me.

I don't know why I say that when I can look in the big picture and see I'm not that bad. But still... just not good enough.

Or when I'm in a real negative mood... anything that comes up I say to myself "it'll never happen" "why even try? you're going to fail" "they'll never accept you" "that kind of guy would want more from a girl rather than me" "you're dumb" "you're brain doesn't work" "you're not intelligent" "sufferr!!" "you're appearance is hideous in everyway" "ugly hair, crooked nose, bad skin, weird body... unattractive."

It's sick!

At night I worry I will never overcome these things. That I will end up living in a one bedroom apartment, living on ssi money, no hobbies, no friends just one big fat loser who never did anything with her life.

What I want is to live up to my potential. Before all this bipolar news, I was an impressive human being, great girl, ready to take on the world. Now I'm dumb and have no motivation, no ambition. If I don't seek my true potential, I will forever be a loser.

I take Wellbutrin and I notice a similar side effect. I'm much more inclined to snap at people - than I was before taking it.

I also can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago. That really gets in my way.

Good luck, I hope you feel better.

You cannot let the bipolar define who you are......I think alot of us do that...including myself. It's not who we are it's just a PART of what makes us awesome individuals!!!