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Braveredhead
Braveredhead

Why do I panic and don't want my boyfriend to leave and I don't want to be without him. When we are not good for each other and he is mean to me. And I'm not nice to him. I am hurting. I can do this by myself! I don't want to be afraid I don't want to hurt anymore. Take the hint he doesn't want to talk to me. I told him I don't want to be with him anymore. Then I thought all these wrong thoughts and got scared and called him. I thought he was really not coming back. I got scared. I need to be strong. He's mean to me.  I hurt so much. I deserve to be happy. 

iwontbackdown1
iwontbackdown1
So sorry you feel scared, Braveredhead. Sounds like a relationship made in hell for my two cents' worth. I'm concerned for you. Have you ever looked into a co-dependency group? Bipolars are apt to do this. I did. I stayed friends long after I'd justified even having a former boyfriend in my life. Why? Well, he was this and he did that for me and two major people in my life....and blahblah. He got to be an ass with a Ph.D. in Asses. I did tell him to lose my number plenty of times. He'd call my cell and/or on my Bldg. Lobby's phone. I would relent....til this past mid-June. Someday, I'll elaborate, not now.
YOU are the one who has to decide what is best for you. Why are you scared? Make a list of pro's and cons columns maybe? As many lists as you need, for instance, one when you make up and one when you are separated (for whatever reasons). Hope you stop being afraid.
beckyp
beckyp
I understand your fear. I was married for 27 years to a drunken, mentally and emotionally abusive man. I was afraid to leave. Some things happened and I knew I just couldn't stay any longer. Do you have family or friends you can be with during the time after you leave him? Someone to support you? My sister and her family helped me break the cord and I live a very satisfying life now. It wasn't easy, but you can do it if you decide to do it. Don't waste your life being unhappy.
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