Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I can't have fresh marks for several reasons.
But I need an extraordinary calm right now. Only one thing comes to mind, cutting.
I took 3 Gabapentins, I really over-indulged, considering I'm low. I don't even know if that will do....
All of existence seems to dissipate, and is pointless. I could die and what would that even mean?
At it's very very core, it doesn't mean anything. My story's in no way unique at all.
"Valhalla", the hall where Odin's warriors return to after being slain in battle. (I might have the story a little wonky Idk). There must be a 'Valhalla" for people who've lost everyday battles, to depression and other forms of mental illness.
It's vast! So many people don't thrive and don't make it in this lifetime. So many people like me. How do you cope with these numbers? How do you be different when you're not better or different than they were right before they lost the fight?
But I need an extraordinary calm right now. Only one thing comes to mind, cutting.
I took 3 Gabapentins, I really over-indulged, considering I'm low. I don't even know if that will do....
All of existence seems to dissipate, and is pointless. I could die and what would that even mean?
At it's very very core, it doesn't mean anything. My story's in no way unique at all.
"Valhalla", the hall where Odin's warriors return to after being slain in battle. (I might have the story a little wonky Idk). There must be a 'Valhalla" for people who've lost everyday battles, to depression and other forms of mental illness.
It's vast! So many people don't thrive and don't make it in this lifetime. So many people like me. How do you cope with these numbers? How do you be different when you're not better or different than they were right before they lost the fight?
"I know my friends love me, and I love them. I can bare my soul to them, and not expect to get wounded."
THAT makes you special! I would love to have friends like that but it's never been in my cards. So there are people out there who love you and even CARE that you MATTER!
I hope you don't cut. Be good to yourself, you're going through so much right now, be easy on yourself. Make some tea, listen to soft music, anything but self-harm! ((((HUGS))))