living at the beach myself. it is gorgeous down here. hot as hades but pretty and fun.

I'm here! And I'm feeling pretty good. Had a rough night on Sunday, but as the Lord has promised, weeping my endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.

I've been volunteering at a place called The Lord's Gym and going to church and spending time with my family.

The only bad thing is that I am absolutely FED UP with taking pills. I take thirteen pills every day. I am so sick of it. Makes me want to quit them. I am going to ask my tdoc today if she thinks I will ever be able to go off them or if it's a life sentence.

altho, i do miss having a shitter i dont bang my knees to sit on.

Me- More depressed then the usual. Energy at a low, but I pace around a bit more then I'd like because of the meds. Not as stable as I'd like to be, feel like a ticking time bomb, have a call into the pdoc. I've still been able to get up to the Prky and do some hiking with my son bout once a week. I have to push hard, but I get it done.

I've been having a hard time in the mothering department. One in college taking 1 class over the summer and working, the other a middle schooler who wants to play vidoe games ALL the time, hence the hikes I take him on. They argue and holler, and I go slowly crazier. Honestly makes me not want to get out of the bed each morning, but I can't sleep either so I get up.

I've finally come to grips on my not going back to school to get my RN, too stressful working as a LPN so why put myself through it. I'm going back to school in the Fall for medical coding and I'm actually excited about that. I have no plans for staying on disability for the rest of my life, it just isn't an option for me.

Oh and I'm scouring the neighborhood for someone who has a damn pool, it's pretty freaking hot here latetly!

Lol, what beach you hanging out at paintdry??


Does the Lord really say joy come in the morning.....where is mine then?? hehe Glad you're spending time with friends and family, and the volunteering sounds like a great idea. I'd like to volunteer but have been having Waaaaay too much anxiety. And the pills, I hear ya on the fed up!! I think I am turning into a pez!! lol

I am around being kicked by life hard right now. But I am grateful I am alive I guess. :)

Soss, hang in there! I feel the blows too! ooxx

fl or ida ea st coa st be ach

now that the blown up oil rig pieces are washing up on mirimar beach... i dont know how nice it is going to be for how long, just a crying shame really.

i am not going to risk us all getting sick either, i dont know what is going to happen after watching the news last night. the news is bad for bps.

i am sorry to hear you are not up to par. i hope that changes soon.

well im back from holliday it was great.

Thanks paintdry...I hope it changes soon too.

Yeah what a mess with BP, damn shame any of it had to happen. i really feel for the people and animals that live there!

So veryblue, what did you do over the holiday?? Glad you enjoyed.

Spending time with the kids once they are out of school. Going to thte beaches. Funny I live on the west coast right where the oil is and so far we have nothing,,thank god. Getting lessions on using sunscreen again, the hard way.

All this beach talk makes me contemplate driving 8 hours to VA beach just to walk along the shore.

I think I just might, hell after I see the pdoc today I'll only be 7 hours away!! lol

I got one hand in my pocket and the other hand throwin a peace sign!
:P

Skips in and skips out without answering. . . not gonna say as not having knocked the manic down the ladder enough to not be hating life yet

I just got done moving. My new place is much nicer, but for some reason I'm numb to it all!!! I basically don't want to do anything, everyday! And it's been a struggle just getting from one thing to another. But I'm here and need support pretty bad.