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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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TC40 04/22/2016

I have been in excruciating pain (knee). It has gotten so bad that I can barely walk. During my physical today, my doctor says I need to see a surgeon. He thinks I may have a torn meniscus. wtf!?!?!? I also talked to him about the neuropsych results that I got on Wednesday. I gave him the report. He said something that made sense and I had never considered. I never had this problem before. He thinks this could be caused by the cancer and the surgeries I went through. PTSD. first I was confronted with my mortality. Then I had my abdomen cracked open (from pubic to diaphragm) twice in 6 months and had boiling chemo dumped into my abdominal cavity. He said you may be "under" during surgery, but your brain and body still absorb the trauma and pain. I am now one complete total mess. I wish I would've died on the operating table. I honestly do not know how much more I can take. I feel like my life is crumbling away. I keep talking to God. I'm not sure I can handle much more. If I didn't have religious beliefs about suicide, I wouldn't be typing this right now.

BabyShelby 04/23/2016

Hey TC~~

I know you're up to your eyeballs in turmoil at the moment but you've shared some promising information.

I tore my meniscus. An MRI confirmed it and I had arthoscopic surgery and things were ship shape in a few weeks. Don't be scared -- it's a relatively gentle surgery with very good success rates.

The idea that your body has been impacted by your cancer treatment even though your conscious memory was protected makes good sense. Check into rehabilitation interviews with propofol.

PaganSpirit 04/23/2016

Oh TC, you are dealing with so much. I hate to see you struggle so much and going through such tough times. Is there any way you can give yourself a break from it all even for a day or two. These problems aren't going anywhere unfortunately but maybe you can escape them even for just a couple days. Take some time to yourself to take some deep breathes, go for a walk and take in some nature, watch some feel good movies, or read a little. Recharge your batteries. You deserve to give yourself a break from all your problems. Take a break and come back to it with a new outlook. Just some ideas. I wish you well.

Autumn111269 04/23/2016

Hey TC-you are under so much pressure. I have to go along with pagan as maybe you need to give yourself a break from the worry and stress. Try to do something you enjoy and put all the bad stuff aside just for a day or two as it could be quite refreshing just to elude the worry for a while. I am glad you have your religious beliefs because I don't want anything to happen to you. You can do this and all the bad will pass in time. It will get better. Keep praying!! Hugs.

TC40 04/23/2016

Baby Shelby, that is good to hear about the knee surgery

I am so anxious. I am terrified of becoming homeless. Idk what I a, going to do.

TC40 04/23/2016

Baby Shelby, that is good to hear about the knee surgery

I am so anxious. I am terrified of becoming homeless. Idk what I am going to do. I am at a seriously low point in my life. I just don't know how or why this has happened.

I wish I could get in my car and drive away. Not tell anyone where I went.

irishwriter 04/24/2016

as pagan and autumn said why not try a break. do get in your car but instead of running away just go as far as a nice coffee shop and sit for half an hour with a drink and something delicious to eat and pretend for that short moment that everything else has gone away, even for a little while. take a breath and take a break. hugs.

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