Kubla-

Definitely not exclusive to you, it's called rapid cycling. It's a hard one to deal with. Rapid cyclers can show signs in many different ways. A lot of bipolars only have one manic episode in a year or two but then have the depression last the whole time in between the manic episodes.

Some people have the episodes maybe once a month. Rapid cyclers, which I am, can cycle on a daily or weekly basis. For me I can cycle 10-30 times a day. Let me tell you, on my bad days I am exhausted at the end of the day from all the cycling. It's up, get things done, buzz around busy, trying to conquer the world, then bam next thing I know is my stomach is sick and in knots and I am bawling my eyes out wanting to die.

Can be like that for an hour or a day, then poof back up I go. I have really been called crazy when people around me witness these extreme, quick mood changes.

You should keep track of your cycles, just write down when you are up and what feelings you are experiencing. I would do that for a couple weeks then go to pdoc and talk to them about it. It might just be that your meds need to be tweaked.

I hope that's all it is for you because I still haven't found a medication to really get me even. Unfortunately I have been in a bad cycle since last November and got so bad in March that I had to go out on disability. I also have narcolepsy and that is a pretty devastating disorder to have as well, it just gets me more depressed then what I thought was humanly possible. I barricaded myself in my room about a month ago to "think" whether I wanted to end it or not.

It's probably one of the hardest things to deal with when you rapid cycle. And that brings me to the question of the triggers. I have them, I think all bipolar people do. But what I noticed is that I don't have a clue most days when I am going up or down, there aren't any triggers. It just happens.

I hope you get this figured out and find something to help slow your cycles down.

Good Luck,
Kimmers

just posted on the same thing the thought of the future seem good but then the confinement of it all is something i have trouble dealing with it like i need to be hear to stay health wtf this is the life i had planed then i expect and still there is soemthing pulling me down

We are all different re cycling... meds often hold it at bay when they're working well.. Therapy in conjunction will address these triggers and help you to find healthy ways to deal with them...cognitive therapy will help to change some thinking patterns..
I hope you feel better soon..x

I am all over the board all the time. I drive myself crazy! One minute I'm ok, optimistic, even happy. then the next minute I wish I was dead. I go through cycles like this everyday all day and I hate it. Sometimes I think maybe I should just check myself in at mental health and tell them to throw away the key.

There is really no set pattern to a BP cycle....some people go YEARS w/o episodes, some people have an episode every month, or even more often.....but usually the people who cycle more than once a month, are most likely having issues with Boarder Line Personality Disorder ( now ...how many people have i pissed off , because I wrote that )


Ultra cycling is RARE .....I mean rare like one in tens of thousands .

Mixed episodes on the other hand are more common, and that's probably what rapid cyclers are experiencing .

Anyway you cut it , it all hurts and suxs !

I'm just like Majick.
Up and down all day every day throughout the day.
It sucks.