Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe

I have been suffering from bipolar disorder for many years now.  It seems I go through depression more often than I used to.  Nearly any kind of stressful experience can put me into depression.


I don't think it is  a problem with my medication though.   Nearly my whole life is I have experienced traumatic episodes and large amounts of stress.


I don't experience joy or happiness like I used too.  I feel tired most of the time.  I don't have a lot of motivation and low self esteem.


I don't know how long I can live this way.  It is so painful.


I wish I could still work because then I would be earning my own money.  It would also make the question, "What do you do?" easier to answer.


I just want a little of my old self back.

SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
It's a really difficult thing to manage and live with...I know what you mean about wanting your old self back. I seem to live with a constant ball of stress always holding me back from really living a full life.

We have to hold hope though, that as more people open up about the difficulties that we can find more supportive people along the path.

Wishing you well.
dobiedots
dobiedots
I just went through that this year. It WAS the meds. After 3 major med changes that were hard to deal with I am now happily on Abilify and I feel great. Talk to your pdoc and let him know.
autumn8890
autumn8890
I go through that quite often and sometimes it has been my meds. I am on a great combo now but still have a lack of motivation and little energy. I don't really think I'm depressed, just not very happy. Not even sure how to be happy at this time. I hope you can get some of "yourself" back cause I know most of us would probably like to. I would even take a hypomanic episode at this point just to get outta the slump but my pdoc says I am better than I've been all year so just sticking with it. Best of luck!!
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
Hugs and kisses to you. I wish there were a fairy godmother for us to get rid of our mental health issues.
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
we often think it's not a meds thing....but with BiPolar it's pretty much always a meds thing, because the brain chemistry is off and it takes meds to get it back to balanced. to get you back to a place where you have joy, happiness, good days over bad, less depression.....sounds like you need a medication adjustment. And that's not an unusual thing, once we've been on the meds for a while the brain adjusts and the meds need adjustment.

The thing is, it doesn't hurt to try to get back to better with a med change. Trying is always better than doing nothing.
MayB
MayB
Jenn I have felt this way many times and what you say is the hallmark of depression talking. I know med changes can be rough but it is sure worth pursuing I agree a small tweak can sometimes make a huge difference. I too suffer from low self confidence but reaching out to others and learning new things has really put a dent in it. You have a lot on your plate at the moment is there any way you could cut yourself a break? ((((hugs)))))
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
All I can do is get through it one day at a time and ask for help when I need it.
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