I'm sorry you feel you can't be honest with your therapist. When I tell my therapist I am suicidal she makes sure to see me that day if possible and we talk about ways to combat those feelings. Are you sure your therapist won't help you? Why would you think she'd pawn you off to someone else? It might be your depression talking. Honesty is important if you want your therapist to help you,. Good luck! I'm sorry you feel so bad.

It would be pretty cruel for your therapist to drop you when you just got out of the hospital. Big hugs.

Why don't you doubt you'll try again kisses?.... I think your life can change in a positive way however you have to be honest with those who are trying to help you..... and I would work try to stop considering suicide as a solution to problems..... I don't believe it is a good solution

I would work really hard on taking suicide off of the table as an option..... It's really important to recognize our symptoms..... That doesn't mean we should act on them though just that we're recognizing that we're having them and that we need more help during these times

I personally work very hard on this and it's made a huge difference in my life

I also have looked at it as how would I feel if my loved one whomever mom or niece committed suicide.... would I be able to go on and what would my life be like if this happened..... I would have been devastated....

This is what those who care for us would have to live with so I think we owe it to them to do the best we can to work at finding stability and we can do that.....We have a treatable disorder

I try to look at signs and symptoms as simply that.... I work at looking at these things in a pretty pragmatic way

There is healing Kisses..... We may go back and forth at times however our disorder is treatable..... Please hang onto that...... Big hug.......xo

Kisses... with all due respect I think this is the disease talking. I have hope that you can talk to your therapist honestly about what is going on. I also can’t imagine that she would drop you as a patient in a time of need. Please consider taking suicide out of the equation your thoughts. (I say that with only my understanding of being a suicide survivor myself and having intense depressive moments when medication has needed to be adjusted and I’ve felt all was lost/hopeless). Hugs. Please take it easy and know you are loved a great deal!

No words of wisdom, only hugs and hopes of better days. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.

I would encourage you to be honest with your therapist....but the bigger question is finding something in life to keep you here....I happily support you are you work this out.

I am sorry you are dealing with this I for one am glad your suicide attempt failed and I don't know you but I have felt that low before there is something out there to help you and maybe being honest with your therapist is a start

I was able to be honest with her today and she was very helpful. I should be starting inpatient on Thursday so that will be extra support. My first therapist dumped me after a suicide attempt of mine so that’s why I was afraid my current t would dump me.

Perhaps first therapist terminated because of "your suicide' because 'she didn't feel she could '''give you what you needed'. For Your Best interests and to find another supportive person who could work on your symptoms and needs to stay alive.

Some Therapists' get "traumatized" at the thought of losing a patient. Its hard being on that side of the proverbial couch. Your job is to help people, to listen, to then take their words, their pain and their experiences and turn that into a productive form of return therapy that will make them "better". When a patient commits or tries to commit suicide, sometimes it makes you feel like you've failed, simple as that. You failed to help that person get better and what else can you do. I have such a weird combination of being the patient who's tried suicide so many times, of being the Therapist who was supposed to make someone feel better and couldn't, I even have the mom of a depressed child and the helplessness that feeling brings in. Its weird to have all those sides of the triangle in one head.

Therapists are human, mere mortals like everyone else and they make mistakes, they quit when they shouldn't, young new ones, bright and shiny like a new penny don't always understand the damage it does to drop a patient, when they feel they've failed and can no longer help that person get better. Then there are the ones who have been doing it forever and just can't handle losing another patient...because this isn't just losing a patient to another Dr. or practice, no, we're talking about life and death here, when Pdocs and Therapists lose patients its usually because they've died. A good deal of the time its because they've taken their own life. Try to comprehend for just a moment how that would be to have as your job, every day. The average Therapist sees a patient roster of 25 - 40 patients at a time, the average Pdoc in private practice has a patient roster of 30-75 at a time for management care. Think of how many human lives those Dr.'s carry in their hands each day, how many people they are expected to make better....

It was not right of your former Therapist to dismiss you, it was so utterly wrong, unfortunately it happens all the time, because some just can't handle that much "almost death". I am so glad that you were honest with your current Therapist, because honesty is the basis of that relationship and if its not there, it doesn't work.

Now here's a theory I'd like you to consider....
Do you ever think of why you've not successfully completed suicide from all those try's? I have 5 attempts under my belt, the last one in 2010. I woke up in that ER, realized I was not where I'd planned on being, and the same question popped in my head as the other 4 times, "what the hell do I tell my sons...." then I got pissed, I'd done this 5 times, now and I had a medical background I knew how to do it, I was angry that I was awake in that damn hospital, yet again. So I do what I always do when I got home 3 weeks later...put my brain to work and started studying and researching and this is what I come up with between medical research and the bible and some other religious type studies. If your brain, your body, your soul doesn't want to die, if its not "your time" it doesn't work, you wake up and all you've done is made yourself a lil sicker, made your family a lot more scared and just made things generally worse. If you look at all these people that try suicide and the few who actually succeed the percentage is pretty low. So at some point you have to say, this isn't working and put the energy your putting into escaping this life back into living this life.

well that's what I come up with anyways.

Good luck on your new therapy Kisses and I really hope that you choose to put your energy into living life.

Oldercper thank you for that insight. I would never want to be a therapist for fear of getting a patient like me. I don’t doubt that my first therapist was traumatized by my plentiful suicide attempts. My new therapist didn’t even mention the work suicide yesterday. She seems better able to manage me.