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Homicidal Suicidal

blazefly
blazefly
I am so ready to die.
The only thing stopping it is my thoughts of leaving my nephew.
I am more angry about everything that living is not important anymore.
My family is taking it lightly that I won't take my life, that it useless.
I want to kill so much that I am emotionless right now.
I am going to do the plan that I work out in a facility so I calm down or get the help I need.

I don't know why it is happening again,but it's got me on edge.
The thought of killing with no worry or emotion.
dobiedots
dobiedots
Perhaps going to a phosp would be a help.
You don't want to do anything that when you "come out of it" you'll be in trouble for.
dobiedots
dobiedots
Can you write down what things are making you angry? They may have been festering in your mind for a long time and are coming to a head.
dancingd
dancingd
Things sound really wound up for you.

I would suggest talking to a crisis center , or your Pdoc ASAP

{{{hugs}}
2kidmom
2kidmom
When I feel like I am going to explode, I journal it all out and yes at times I can feel suicidal. Try it, but if you are so bad you may want to check yourself in if you feel like you are going to hurt yourself. Big Hugs! You are not alone!!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I hope you've gone to the hospital blazefly.... If your nephew is that important to you then I would guess that you're very important to him as well....
There is good help for you sweetie... Big hug of comfort for you and a blessing...xo
irishwriter
irishwriter
if you're homicidal then you need to get to pdoc or hospital straight away. please get help. your nephew does not need to live with that.
hugs to you and i hope you're getting help.
deleted_user
deleted_user
If you fear you are so low that killing feels like an option, I advise calling your local crisis center immediately.
DeeTOOL13
DeeTOOL13
So sorry to hear this
Please reach out & get some help


Hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user
Ever notice how the small print/fast talk at the end of those medication commercials have no qualms about mentioning that thoughts of suicide may be a possible side-effect?

I expect they've concluded to leave the world "murder" as it would be bad for sales.

blazefly...go see someone, call someone...even if it's the police...you need to be talked down from this.

I wish you peace and calm...clarity.
aussiewriter
aussiewriter
pray constantly to god...he can hear you...chant 'christos' over and over again. this will destroy suicidal thoughts. xo
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