Welcome to the forum, ano.

Yup, mania is, indeed, addictive. To think. . . Some people need pharmaceuticals to feel this. . . The coming down as hard as I went up, etc., bites the big one, though.

The calmer activities I use to fill the slower pace may not be as exciting, but they are allot more productive with allot less collateral damage.

But that is me. . .

Looking forward to learning yours. Welcome to DS.

Thanks for the reply. I was also on add meds which didn't help. It's killing me---the boredom feeling. How long before normal again if you know.

HI and Welcome anon......It's great that you're getting the help that you need to be stable.... I think accepting that there's a lot to be said for taking time to stop and smell the roses just as there is riding the waves
You can still find excitement in life and joy in other ways
I'm glad you found us!... Big hug.....xo

Grateful that another has joined. Thank you.

If you find and tell me what normal is supposed to be, I'll tell you how many times I've been there.

If you mean stable, that's something altogether different

Boredom. Find some creative outlets. Draw, paint, color adult coloring books (I've seen a kama sutra one even). Join a gym. Exercise. Find new ways to eat healthy. Meditate. Learn about what you really do want from life, your beliefs, and what your heart tells you it's the right thing.

Keep us posted please

I take abilify pills and I have what I call a feeling of being flat. I try to stay busy and it helps. I'd rather have the flatness than be manic.

So are you BiPolar or do you just have an addiction to being "manic"?

I am bipolar 1 with psychotic tendencies and religious ideations. I have been on the intramuscular shot of abilify for over 4-5 months now.

write again soon...

welcome to the board

thanks to all of you for your responses. each day becomes easier than the last.

abilify has eliminated all of my psychotic delusions. i miss them, but boredom and stability rate much higher.

I believe that what you perceive as "boredom" is just normal life, normal range of daily emotions, and you'll get used to that and adjust to that as the meds continue to work and keep you out of the psychotic delusions and manic episodes. Many times when you spend so much time Manic and the delusions take over your mind creates a skewed version of life and the world you live in. But I think if you just give it some time, things will normalize. Do you have any activities that you like to do that are considered normal in the regular everyday world? If you do, it might be an idea to focus on some of those during the day to occupy your mind, so you don't focus so much on the difference of how life is now and what you miss. Acceptance of your new state of mind will be the key to living your regular life without considering it boring.

Nice to see you on the Board.
K

I was raised in the child sex trafficking circuit of the 50's and 60's, Ano. A return to my personal "Normal" was not even on the agenda, so I am clueless on that score. I was/am building a functional life from scratch. My peer support buds who had a Normal worth returning to have had very mixed results on the quest to regain previous norms. Personally, I am not sure we get to go back, but I haven't tried it myself, so no personal experience to share.

Boredom is a whole different story, though. If nothing else, the world of child sex trafficking is quite ? ? ? exciting? ? ? chaotic? ? ? unpredictable? ? ? unstable? The cheaper the thrill, the more alluring. Somewhere in the 80's I started treating my personal boredom like a psycho flag; a front line indicator that I am in danger of a manic episode. I therapute my way through ^it^ pretty quickly these days. The calmer interests are far more productive by my personal measure.

You guys are wonderful. Thank you!

I am attending both an NA meeting and a creative writing class today. I am really trying to do this. i could easily get back on my add meds, but I want to rise above even that.

I am still new to the boards so pardon me for not reaching out directly to anyone else yet.