Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i am not doing too good
I have been in the ER FOUR TIMES in about a month. All because of terrible stomach pain. I got three differing opinions.
"You need to have your gallbladder out" 2 doctors told me this. ( plus, I had a HIDA scan last year showing my gbladder not working properly)
"you are fine. Ur gallbladder is fine"
"you have scar tissue in your abdomen causing all of this"
i have an appointment with my surgeon (who did my cancer surgeries) tomorrow
all resulting in "go home". I did go to my primary dr. She said there was a troubling "finding" on my recent ct scan. I had appendix cancer in 2007. This finding could be due to many things, one which could be cancer. It is not troubling. I WANT to die.
i am reducing my lamictal. I started two weeks ago. I'm going slowly. Tonight I noticed a major shift. I am on a fast ride to depression. I am so tired of being broken mentally AND physically. I've already decided that if my cancer DOES come back, there won't be a "round 2". I put myself through hell in 2007. The surgeries I had were downright barbaric, and most likely DID F*** my insides up. It won't happen again. I am not afraid. There isn't much for me in this world. No kids, relationships. I am tired of being alone. I went through cancer alone, I go through bipolar alone. I divorced my EXhusband in 1998 cuz he cheated on me. I STILL HATE HIM. Because of him,I suffered. ALONE. it isn't even a consolation that he and the whore he left me for are now divorced. It doesn't take any of it away. I sometimes wonder if he would feel bad if he knew. Somehow I doubt it. I wish God would take me
I'm not doing too well tonight.
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I've been feeling like I don't matter my wife the other day instead of telling me she was having a pain day when I went to have sex with her she tell me afterwards that she having pain day due to her fribromyalgia and making feel like shit afterward saying she has a list of things from past 9 years of thing for me to do and is always adding more and more to this list and talk...
I know that gallbladder pain can be miserable if this is what it is.... I hope you have some answers soon... Big hug and a blessing....xo