i never really posted in this group before. i have very bad bipolar and deep mood swings. i take a very strong dose of medicine for it. but i hate taking meds. and i personally think im crazy and i over react everything but im not trying to. there's to much on my plate and stuff keeps adding. i get very depressed at times and other time im over extremely happy. my moods change so fast that no one know really how i feel. but alot of the time i have so many emotion i feel at one time so that its very overwelming and stressful. every once in a while i feel nothing its like im blank and i just cant think and i forget what i was doing. i dont know if thats all bipolar but most of it is. i dont know how to contain it or how to fix it. i dont know if anyone has ever had the same problem. i dont know what to do with all my probems..
pain killers trouble. I was prescribed benrenorphin patches because i becamed addicted to abusing tramadol for my pain. I asked to go on patches so i couldnt abuse or get atticted. Im on a 52.5 and a extra 5 so two different strength patches. I tried yday to see what i would feel if i stopped and took off the patches. I went 15 hours without then came bed time and i was climbing the walls in...
My nightmares often center around the bystanders. The people that could have done something...but didn't. Why not? Was I not worth it? Otherwise, they acted like good people. They'd talk to me...just not when anyone could see.