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i think i might be manic? i'm awake and have energy which is not normal for me... usually i am tired and sluggish. but i feel like i have a healthy energy level... but its different. i am kind of aggitated and i'm having "disturbing thoughts" as my therapist calls it and they are fleeting. like i feel so _______ i cant stand it and i vision my body being chopped into pieces but like clay.. its not violent or bloody. its like my imagination... but i think of burning myself or jumping off my porch and i have mild visions for all these things to happen. i thought of eating.. eating because i want to sink my teeth into something.. or thinking its medicine and itll make it go away. but i dont eat because i know it wont fix anything. i am frustrated on my guitar and cant continue painting. ive tried having a cigarette but that wont help.. i need more! i need something more intense! but i dont know what that is to cure me...
what is it with me?
does anyone else get visions or "disturbing thoughts" like this?
i dont know what to do with myself..
im unsettled.. and in need of something i cant explain because i dont know what it is.. but its weird
what is it with me?
does anyone else get visions or "disturbing thoughts" like this?
i dont know what to do with myself..
im unsettled.. and in need of something i cant explain because i dont know what it is.. but its weird
Don't panic. You can get through this.
xx
i dont have any anti anxiety medication. do you think that would help?
i'm scared to talk to my doctor sometimes.. my mom takes control of those apts.
thank you for your replies!!!
Geesh..you are certainly old enough to try and get a handle on YOUR BP..besides..I know I could never open up to my Pdoc completely ,if my mom was in the room...you need your space and set some boundries ,It's only fair to you.
With mom ,it may be she is getting over involved with your sessions?
Gren, as for having your mother handle your appointments, perhaps you can "ween" away slowly so you feel safe. Every other appointment first, then perhaps every 4th appt., until you are in charge of your own care with your pdoc.
It is your decision, but I would not have had my mother involved for anything to protect her from seeing my pain...but I was much older when I got the right dx.
My pdoc kept telling me "Oh you need to stay on it. This Abilify is good stuff. It's specifically for BP." Bullshit. If it does not help, I don't care if the pharmaceutical companies tailored it for my body directly, I won't take it!
Good luck