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TC40
TC40

I was let go of my job this morning. Why??  Because “they decided to hire their temp that had been there awhile and another person (a girl who was just hired at the same time I WAS-cuz her mommy works there). I was like “i left a JOB to come here. I havent even been here 2 WEEKS YET”!!  She said “well it is an at will state”. I couldnt even believe it. I was floored. I am feeling very depressed. I just don’t feel like i was meant to be successful or have anything truly good last. I can’t share this with my family because they will put the blame on me and tell me it is MY fault or that I did something to cause it to happen. I feel very alone right now. I had said (when i started this job) that if this job didnt work out i would commit suicide. That i could not handle another failure. Now here i am. I have been home all day since i got let go at my job. I HAVE the means to give in and do it, but i haven’t done it. I dont want to die, i just want something good to happen to me. I just keep getting knocked down on my ass and i don’t understand it.  All i ever do is TRY. and then I fail. And then i fail. And then fail some more. I am a failure.  

polarbare
polarbare
TC40 - you are not a failure - you persevere failures do not--- its hard to have hope when life is difficult and you have had your share of hardships-- but i always think a closed door leads to an open window-- new opportunities will come----when you take giving up off the table after you breathe from this latest setback you can focus on rebuilding ---it is unfair that they hired you and you left a prior position but this loss does not define you--- your family are wrong -- you deserve more support ---- do take time to heal emotionally from this rejection but keep moving foward --- your life is not defined by work you are so much more then a job --- love yourself ----(hugs) polar
TC40
TC40
Thank you. I just feel so awful and alone right now.
chris138
chris138
Sorry to hear about your latest job TC. I am not the best in the "career" or job department either. I have failed so many times too. Heck I screwed up a few sure things in my time. But I know that I can't go back.

I am currently hanging onto a job at an Amazon fulfillment center. I take it week by week (you never know with that place). It's hard work, but its all I have right now. Meh.

Hopefully you can find something else down the road. Can you go back to your previous job? Just a thought. There is a lot riding on jobs, but don't do anything permanent over a job. Something will come along again for you. :-)
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
Hon you aren’t a failure. Life is just giving you a lot of lemons. Keep trying. As long as you are trying you can’t fail
CatinMichigan
CatinMichigan
TC, just as everyone else said, you're definitely not a failure. And, suicide is not an option for you...keep coming to DS to vent and for support. I hope you have some other support systems other than your family (which you say isn't a support system) like some friends other than the ones you have on DS. Maybe, you want to apply for disability ( just a thought), so you can work part-time instead of worrying about getting/keeping a full-time job. That's what I do. But, obviously, if you want to continue working full-time, do so, by all means! You'll find something, hopefully sooner than later. Good luck. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.
SullenKitty
SullenKitty
I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I think it's harder for us than most people to process setbacks in a constructive way. Your emotions are so strong and everything feels so bad. But this is a great place to find support and encouragement from people who have been there.

It's so hard to have to try harder than most to even function and survive sometimes and it can be unbearable when life all piles up on you. But you will get through this.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug for you sweetie..... This is not about you being a failure at all..... Don't talk to yourself in such a harsh way

We end up believing what we say to ourselves whether true or not at times

I'm glad that you keep trying..... That takes courage..... xo
TC40
TC40
I had gone to my regular doctor before i started my job because i was in alot of pain. I just went back to her yesterday. I told her what happened and she said that when i told her where i was going to work, she want to warn. But she didnt because i was so excited and had such a goid attitude. She said that place is not good. She doesnt even like dealing with office staff because they are rude. I wish she had said something. I dont know yet if going back to my ild job is an optio.n. I applied for ny hob on their website. I contacted ny old manager abd sge said that if my application was pulled for an interview, she would call me. I am going to apply for unemployment. If they dont hire me back, i will most likely get unemployment. At least that is what i was told at tge unemployment agency. I am not so sure i WANT to go back to my old job. It was mentally and verbally abusive. It was also very depressing because it was child welfare. So i am feeling very lost right now.
Pharrah
Pharrah
Please, please do not do anything to hurt yourself. You clearly stated the reasons they let you go, and not one of them had anything to do with you or what you deserve. That company sounds like they treat their people like crap and employment there is more of a popularity contest than a place to build a career. You will find another job- hopefully one that treats you with the respect that you deserve.
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
I hope that you have steady treatment with a Pdoc and Therapist during these hard times, so that you have the support, coping skills and advice you need.

You might consider working Temp jobs for a while until you get a little more steady on your feet. Working for different companies every few days can be a good change and help you see what type of atmosphere you really might enjoy. There are usually 2 or 3 large Temp Agencies in most good size cities.
ellomalley
ellomalley
this happened to me a month ago. it hurt and sucked because i left my part time jobs to work for them. but everything happened for a reason. i found a better job that fit me so much better, hugs,
ellomalley
ellomalley
as far as suicidal thinking, there is always hope. ive been there too it scared me. but its safe to say im not there anymore. life has so much to offer. remember it is not a failure, stuff happens and we can learn how to react and learn from it or let it defeat us, and you are strong! you are an overcomer you can get thru! even if it feels hard. you survived
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