so.....ive been taking 2 mg of Ativan for YEARS at night. My pdoc had allowed me to start taking 2 mg (spread out and not all at obe time) during the day. I was taking it as needed. When i did take it it made me very sleepy. So i havent taken it during the day, even though i had anxiety. This same pdoc had previously had me on 2,400 mg of gabapentin EVERY DAY AND had me on the 2 mg of ativan at night. Last WEEK I called my pdoc to ask whether i could take a smaller dose of the gabapentin during the day instead of the Ativan. I never heard back from her until. TONIGHT. I told her that i had been to my primary dr today for other reasons and that she had given me an rx for 600 of the gabapentin once a day in place of the ativan. My pdoc got REALLLY nasty with me and said “you cant go between providers like this and you can have one or the other. I will need to have a face to face with you to discuss what you want to do”. So, guys, im not really sure what to do because i am VERY AFRAID of benzo withdrawals. Im only taking 2 mg at night. I am very upset and worries. What should i do? I would like to ditch this psych dr. I am reading about Ativan. I should never have been on it for more than a few months. I have been on it for YEARS!!!!!!i am really scared. And tomorrow is my birthday.
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Minday in therapy I shared a memory I recalled where I witnessed a sexual assault on my mother by my biological father. So I also shared memories I had where my father was violent or abusive during my childhood. I got so worked up that I was shaking. I never shared ANY of that with anyone, even my first therapist who I trusted implicitly. I processed some of the emotions I felt then and now. My...