hi! I was on here years ago some of you may still be on! My struggles w bipolar are not new. I was dx at age 46 after a very long manic episode ended w me attempting suicide ,having a mental breakdown and needing to be in a psyc unit for 3 months followed by 5 more hospitalizations in 1 year. I was an RN married and raising 5 young children. I was an absolute mess. Since than I am now happily divorced 6 y my kids are now almost all adults. My youngest still resides w me as a 16yo girl w many many teenage issues plus dx w BP this year. I have gone through a lot emotionally and physically.
Its been a long road. I have the kind of illness that just doesn't respond to any medication. I stay depressed for years at a time w no reprieve. I get very bad side effects and can't take for long.
I relocated to Florida from Long Island NY 3 y ago. I thought it would be a miracle cure w no winters no cold and plenty of sunshine. I wound up in a psyc unit with in the first month.
It took almost 2 1/2 years to acclimate to Florida and find the right Dr s and medication. I am happy to say that through my new PMD and psychiatrist they took me off a whole bunch of meds adjusted my thyroid med and got me on the right meds w feeling better I was able to begin exercising walking enjoy the outdoors and find joy again.
I was taking 7 different meds none of which worked and my thinking was so messed up anxiety depression TD unbalanced ,falling
I now only take 200mg of Effexor,20mg of Latuda ,Mg ,D3,hydroxyzine for IC and Amour thyroid
I am happy to be back. Look forward to reconnecting and making new friends
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I still haven't lost my 4.o but I'm starting to wonder if any of this is worth it. I lost my job and had to take out a loan against school and the topic for this week is soft skills. They are the cornerstone of my beliefs, but I'm to the point of wondering if soft skills are just skills to voice rather than practice. I believe in teamwork more than almost anything else but have been written up...