hello...your post made me cry...i'm sooo GLAD you have your baby, she would be devastated to find out you took your life when she gets older...at least thats what i tell myself when i get those suicidal ideations...i hear voices that tell me to self harm and even kill myself...it is not an easy life but i'm glad you have the strength to carry on to another day...i try to repeat "all is as it should be" and "i do deserve to live" and *things WILL get better"if you ever need to talk feel free to add me as a friend ok...i'm here often (((gentle hugs)))

hi there.
i'm really sorry you're feeling so awful right now. please get to an e.r. or safe place if the suicidal ideation becomes too much. and please stay alive for the sake of your child. (((hugs)))

I understand exactly how you feel. Unfortunately my daughter is miles away at University...but sometimes I, like you wonder if the world would be a better place without me in it. But then I get to thinking of all the people that would miss me.

It took me ODing last October to find out how many people actually care about me and how lost some of them would feel without me. I certainly DO NOT IN ANY WAY SUGGEST THAT YOU DO WHAT I DID!! THERE ARE NO SECOND CHANCES WHEN YOU COMMIT SUICIDE!!

You are so lucky to have a baby, as me and my husband have been trying for a while and it saddens me to think that you would commit suicide and leave your baby without his/her mother!!

PLEASE CALL A CRISIS LINE IN YOUR AREA OR CALL THE SUICIDE PRVENTION LINE IF YOU REALLY FEEL THAT DEEPLY ABOUT LEAVING YOUR CHILD WITHOUT A MOTHER!! THEY WILL HELP YOU OUT AND CAN HELP YOU TALK THROUGH SOME OF YOUR PROBLEMS!!

Truly feel terrible your going through such rough emotional times. Please don't something rash for you and your baby's sake. If you feel you need professional help I 'm pleading you get to the Psych ER or some other safe place asap. I hope they treat you with compassion as well as professionally. Being with com;passionate, caring people be they professional and/or friends is important.
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mugwort

I know what you mean. Just a week ago I was feeling the same way you do now, heck, to be honest part of me still does. I have my kids though, the youngest having this same screwed up disorder and Asperger's Syndrome to boot. I am here and will stay here because he too gets really down and suicidal. I have to be here for him to keep him safe.

There are so many times that I could just take all my medications at once and sleep. Sometimes that's all I want to do is sleep and never wake up.

Everyone is right here though, your baby, and the rest of your family and loved ones would be devastated if you killed yourself. I was just reading somewhere the other day that people who experience a loved one commit suicide are ten times more devastated than a "normal" death.

I second others posts, get yourself to a safe place. Call the crisis line. As far as I know you can dial 211 and there will be someone there to talk to. They should be able to give you numbers of services in your area.

Good luck, take baby steps, talk to your pdoc, and most importantly just know that you have us here that really do care because we "GET IT"!

(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

hello sweetie! how are you?? do you feel like you really like you wan t to take your life.do you have a plans? a means to do it?? how do you think your b aby would feel to know that mom committed suicide..do you think she could forgive you? your baby needs you,babies need moms love.you say dad is around allow him to help so you can get time you need.i think you need to get on the right meds and stick around to raise your child.you have all of us to support you stick around life is worth it.