Hi Kitty~~

You've been really struggling for a while now. Is it time to call in the reinforcements?

I can't remember where you are in your treatment. Sorry ... seems like many are switching things up lately.

Have you called your pdoc to report all the difficulty you're having lately?

Yes this happens to me every month. In my case it's PMS.

I'm not sure about your case though. It could be hormones but it could be chemical imbalance as well. I'd call a doctor to be 100% sure. Unless you think it's your time of the month than you might want to calk it up to PMS.

I just had the same thing happen a few days ago...was so frustrated and confused as to why I could not stop crying...low and behold a few days later it was that time of the month. I can chalk some of it up to PMS and the rest of the stuff was just stuff I had been not dealing with for some time...so it was time to release it. But wow! was it intense and annoying at times. I hope that it passes for you as well...it usually does. so enjoy your good cries, they come out for a reason usually.

I don't want to sound flippant or sarcastic, but count me in! I'm having a meltdown too. Crying and drinking a couple beers (don't worry not getting faced)

Sometimes I think we need to let it all out.

Is there anything in particular that's triggering it or do you think it's mainly chemical?

Also I'm a firm believer in the concept that the body carries stress and trauma in it physically and sometimes you need to release it. Even if it just comes up spontaneously.

I get lots of 'delayed reactions' where i will suddenly process things that happened ages ago that I never really dealt with. Personally I think sometimes having a mental illness puts some issues on lower priority since we can be in crisis mode a lot where we have to just find basic stability and sanity, so our real feelings get put on the back burner. At least that's how my brain seems to work.

zsa I went on a drinking binge last weekend and got wasted though. I was out of it big time. I could not deal with anything so that was my way of coping for the time being I guess. I dont know what the answer is. It is not pms been there done that already. I am struggling yes. I did call my pdoc and she basically told me to wait it out until my medicaid kicks in I hope next month,so I am trying to hang in htere. It is mighty hard though I tell you. I feel myself going off the deepend sometimes though. Anyone have any suggestions on what to do in the mean time? I could use any suggestions you have at theis point. Thanks.

Hi Just wanted to say im so sorry for all your going through.

MASSIVE hugs
dee

thanks DeeTool13 it sucks.

I've had a major meltdown. I had one about 2 years ago, I cried & laughed, and screamed and couldnt handle it or stop it. I didnt even remember any of it until a few days later. If you need to talk Im here.

I've had a major meltdown. I had one about 2 years ago, I cried & laughed, and screamed and couldnt handle it or stop it. I didnt even remember any of it until a few days later. If you need to talk Im here.

it just keep getting worse I swear. Now I just found out a dear friend of mine from high school has died. She was only 38 and from what I hear from her friends she committed suide by overdosing. She was suffering from bipolar depression to so so sad I am telling you. I cant take much more now this is it............